My first Backstreet Fanfiction
This is my very first story! PLEASE ENJOY

* Family Ties *



" Dad get off me" Jersey yelled in terror, as her father kept on beating her, and beating her harder each time. Her dad wasn't listening to her. He just kept hitting her.
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As Jersey started to get up she winced in pain. But she couldn't make out were she was her eyes were swollen.

" Hello miss Littrell, How are you feeling"?

What were am I" Jersey said in a dazed voice.

'You don't remember'

" NO I don't were am I"

" Your in the hospital, you were admitted last night'

Jersey couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"Miss are you okay" He reached out to her but she jerked back as if afraid of his touch.

" Don't be afraid I'm your doctor"

" Do you know what happened to me"

" Were not sure at the moment but were pretty sure you were attacked"

" You should get some rest the nurse will be in later to ask you questions"

"okay"

" When can I go home"

Were trying to find your closed kin because... were we found you we found your dad....... dead"

My dad's... dead" Jersey said in shock

Yeah were really sorry about your loss"

"how did he die" Jersey asked not sure if he was murdered or if he committed suicide knowing her father probably her second choice. Jersey winced at the thought.

"He killed... himself" The doctor said whispering the last word.

"Do you know why" Jersey said as she started to get mad

"He left a note for you would you like to read it"

"I guess" Jersey said still in shock of her father's death.

Dear Jersey
I'm sorry I left you with nothing, but pain, and I'm very ashamed for what I did to you I hope you can forgive me, I can never forgive myself so I'm taking my own life to make your life better, Your not the only reason I'm doing this my whole life is so messed up with your mother leaving me and your brother in Florida. So just remember I'm sorry and I love you.

Love,
Daddy

P.S. You'll always be my little girl, were ever I go or what ever I did

Jersey cried as she read the note. I mean he abused her but she still felt something for him because he was her father.

"Miss I think you should get some rest, I'll be back in an half hour to check on you"

"Wait", Jersey said suprisingly, "Have you gotten a hold of my
brother yet"
CHAPTER TWO

"I'll check but right now just get some rest"

" How could my dad do..." Her train of thought was cut short by a young man about 26 blondish hair and the bluest eyes entered her room.

"Brian is that you" She said wiping tears from her eyes.

"Yeah" Brian said shocked that she didn't realize him.

"What are you doing here" Her tone changing from soft to smooth to angerment.

"I'm came for you" he said in the same tone

"What do you mean you came for me"

"Well last night they called me and said the you were in the hospital and that dad was... dead, so I decided that mom probably doesn't want you ,.. so I came to take you back to Florida" Brian said in a sincere tone.

"I don't want to go Florida, I have friends here and I'm just starting in my senior year of High School". Jersey said angrily.

"Well your going" He said like he was demanding her to come.

"No I'm not like I told you before I have friends here, I can't just leave them"

"Well you can't stay here buy yourself , you have know where to go and if you stay at the house how are you going to pay the bills"

"I can get a part-time job"

"A part time job can not support you"

"What do you mean mom probably doesn't want me" Jersey said
quickly changing the subject.

'Well she left you before what makes you think that she wants you"

"Well you left me too what makes you think that I want to go with you? Jersey asked

Brian looked at here with hurt in his eyes. Jersey looked up and saw this. She felt kinda bad for doing this to her brother but it was the truth. After a long pause Brian finally spoke

"Well I guess I can't make you go but I really wish you would change your mind.

TWO WEEKS LATER:

"Now Boarding Flight 208 to Florida" came over the speaker

"Well that's us" Brian said

I can't believe I'm doing this"

"Well your going to have a better life here"

"I guess" I said Unsure of what I was getting into

We gave the flight attendant's are passports and we was on are way to Florida. I still couldn't believe I was doing this. I must have fell asleep on the plane because I awoke to the pilot telling us to fasten are safety belts we would be landing in Florida in three minutes.

As I stepped off the plane into the Florida sun I got this feeling that maybe Brian was right maybe my life is going to be a lot better here.

"We Have to meet my friend Nick he's going to take you to his place because I have to go meet with my girlfriend" Brian said kinda fast

"What I just got here and your already dumping me of with some guy I don't even know and making me stay at his house while you meet your girlfriend who's probably only in it for the money" Jersey said quite loudly to her brother.

"What do you mean in it for the money Leigh Ann loves me"

"Save it Brian does she know that your in the Backstreet Boys?
CHAPTER THREE

"Yeah but...."He said trailing off

"But what ... Before or after you started going out?,"

Before... but I know her" Brian said reassuring himself that that was the truth.

"Relax Brian I was just playin around with ya" Jersey said with a slight laugh.

"Look there's my friend Nick" Brian said pointing over to a tall blonde waving at us.

Kinda cute Jersey said to herself . As I got up close to this guy I saw that he was a major hotty. As I went to introduce myself, I looked up and was staring into the most beautifulist eyes I had ever seen.

I reached out my hand and introduced myself "Hi, I'm Jersey"

"I'm Nick, and what a pretty name"

"So I've heard, um thanks, I really don't like my name." Jersey said still not over how hott he was

"So where do you live? Jersey said trying to make conversation

"Um the upper part of Orlando" Nick said a little unsure of what to say next.

"So I guess we should be going" Jersey said, "I'm really tired".

"Yeah my car's right over there". Nick said pointing to a silver Mercedes.

"Nice" Jersey thought to herself. This was going to be the beginning of a beautiful friendship, she thought to herself. Jersey put her bags into the trunk and climbed into the front seat.

"So why don't you like your name." Nick said referring to what Jersey had said earlier.

"Well it's a pretty name and all but I just don't like it, I named after a state!" Jersey said in one breath.

"Well what would you like me to call you?

" It really doesn't matter. "

The rest of the ride was pretty silent except for the occasional sigh. About 15 minutes later they pulled up to this big gate .

"Wow this is your house, it's so big you can't live her by yourself ! Jersey said in astonishment as the gates opened.

"Well my family moved last week and my sister B.J. wanted to finish her school year here so she's living here with me" Nick said as he was getting out of the car.

"Oh, do you have anymore siblings"

"Yeah two more sister's Leslie, and Angel, and one brother Aaron he's Angel's twin".

"You know I have a twin sister her name's Callum"

" Maybe she can come visit sometime"

"Um.. we don't really talk to each other that much maybe sometimes if we see each other out we'll say hi, but I haven't spoken to her in 2 years"
Jersey said sadly.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean anything by it" Nick said in a sincere tone

"It's okay" Jersey said as she remembered all of the rough times she had with her sister's leaving.

"Brian never mentioned he had two sisters he just spoke of you".
Nick said trying to be nosy.

" Well when my mom and dad split up my sister went with my mother, and she never called she acted as if she were better then me and him, and well frankly we

CHAPTER FOUR

thought she was. Well Brian moved to Florida and left me with my dad and turned into her calling twice a year and visiting maybe once if we were lucky." I'm sorry I didn't mean to tell you all that it just sorta popped out" Jersey said apologizing.

"It's okay" He said opening the door to the house.

."B.J., come here for a sec" Nick yelled as we entered the house.

"What" A short but attractive teen said while coming down the stairs.

"I would like you to meet Brian's sister Jersey " Nick said while putting his arm around her waist.

Jersey smiled as Nick put his arm around her. She looked up at B.J. and could definitely tell that her and Nick were related.

"Hi" Jersey said reaching her hand out to shake.

"Hi" B.j. said back with a little bit of anger in her tone.

"Well I'll show you to your room" Nick said taking Jersey hand , and leading her up the stairs.

"I'm staying here I thought I was staying with Brian?" Jersey said questionably

"Well Brian lives here" B.j. said. still with angerment.

"Come on" Nick said to Jersey.

We started to walk up the stairs and I saw Nick give B.j. and icy glare. I just ignored it.

* UPSTAIRS*

"This is your room" Nick said as opening up a double door.

"It's beautiful" Jersey said under her breath.

The room had a balcony a white piano a canopy bed, and ivory dressers, and desks, and I might add a bathroom.

"Well I'll leave you to get settled in"

"Bye"

"Wait , Nick" Jersey said all of the sudden

"Yeah" He said smiling in that drop dead gorgeous Nick Carter smile.

"Why doesn't B.J.... Um ... Thanks for letting me stay here" Jersey said not wanting to cause anything.

"NO problem" Nick said with one of those drop dead smiles.

*AT the same time*

"Leigh Ann, I'm home" Brian yelled through the empty house.
That's funny Brian thought to himself.

As Brian started to leave he heard giggling in the bedroom. Brian started to walk to the bedroom.

"Suprise" Brian yelled but stopped as soon as he realized...

"Brian what are you doing here" Leigh Ann said while covering up herself.

"Who's Brian"

"Her boyfriend" Brian said with angerment.

Brian looked at Leigh Ann. She couldn't believe this was happening.

"I'm her boyfriend" The other guy said .

Brian ran out the room.Leigh Ann after him.

"Brian wait' She yelled, but it was to late he was already out the door.

CHAPTER FIVE

*Back at the Carter house*

"B.J., what's your problem" Nick yelled slamming B.J.'s door.

"What do you mean"

"Don't play dumb, why don't you like Jersey" nick softening his tone.

"What do you mean?... I like her" She lied.

"Bobbie Jean Carter"

B,J. knew Nick meant what he said he never used her real name unless he was mad.

"She seems like a snob" B.J. said.

"You don't even know here"

"Look I don't' like her okay, Now get off my back and out of my room"B.J. yelled.

B,J, was pushing Nick out of her room when they heard a door slam. A second later they heard running and another door slam.

"Well Brian's home" Nick said.

"Yeah, we should go check on him" B.j. said

The two acted as if they weren't just in an argument.
They started walking down the hall when they heard Jersey yelling
Nick's name.

"Great" B.J. muttered

"BE nice" Nick whispered

Is Brian home yet, I need to talk to him" Jersey said out of breath.

"Yeah we were just about to go see him" B.J. said forcing a smile.

"Great" Jersey said smiling.
*KNOCK KNOCK*

"What" Brian yelled.

Jersey could tell he was upset.

"Maybe you should go and talk to him" Jersey said.

"Can I come in" Nick said.

"Sure, but just you" Brian said unlocking the door.

*Inside's Brian's room*

"What's the matter Bri." Nick said as he saw Brian's tear stained face.

"Leigh Ann.. me... broke...up" Brian said sobbing.

What" Nick said not understanding a word Brian said.

"Leigh Ann and I broke up" Brian said as he started to cry again.
Nick had never seen his best friend this upset about a girl before.

"Why" Nick said sympathetically

"I went over there and I heard giggling in the bedroom,.. so I went in there and ...she... she.. was with another guy" Brian said in between sobs.

"Well maybe it was here cousin or something" Nick said trying to cheer up Brian.

"Her family ain't that close" Brian said in a sarcastic tone.

Brian got up and walked over to the door looked at Nick said he's going to pay for this and ran out.

"BRIAN, BRIAN" Nick said running out the door after his friend.
CHAPTER SIX

"What's' going on" Jersey yelled as Nick ran down the stairs and out of the house.

"Get in" Nick yelled at her.

"Where are we going" Jersey asked as they were pulling out of the drive way.

"Leigh Ann's" Nick said going faster trying to catch up with Brian.

"Why"

"WHY" She said louder for Nick to hear her

"Shhhh I need to think" Nick yelled back at her.

Jersey just sat back in her seat. and wondered why they were gong to Leigh Ann's.(Auuthors note: This is a few hours after Brian found Leigh Ann and her fling, But he did just tell Nick)

We pulled into a big parking lot and Nick jumped out of the car as soon as he turned it off.

"Wait up" Jersey yelled

We entered the building ran to the elevator and waited for it to come open.
*DING*
The elevator came open. Nick practically drug me in there.

"What floor" I asked Nick

"Penthouse" Nick said out of breath

"Wow" I said to myself
*DING*

"We're he... Jersey said cut of by Nick running down the hall.

"Wait up" Jersey yelled
Nick banged on the door and finally a women in about her thirty's.(
Author's note: I don't know how old Leigh Ann is but in the story she's 30)

"Nick thank god your here" Leigh Ann said hugging Nick
pushed her off of him.

"Has Brian been here yet" Nick asked mad at Leigh Ann and scared for his best friend.

"Yeah, he's in the kitchen" Leigh Ann said opening up the door.

Leigh Ann stopped me and asked me who I was I simply said Brian's sister. I walked past her and gave her a disgusted glance. When we walked in we saw Nick holding back Brian and a guy lying on the ground lying in a ball position.

"LET GO OF ME" Brian yelled

"No, so you can beat this guy up I don't think so" Nick yelled back.

The guy started to get off the ground. and started cussing Brian out. I walked over to the guy (Jersey) and pushed him back where he was away from Brian. I looked over at Leigh Ann and she was lying on the couch crying.

"Stop" I yelled at the guy as he was trying to get away from me.

The guy who I later figured out was named Josh pushed me hard and walked over to Brian again. Brian got mad this time he pushed Nick off of him and they went at it again. They wasn't fighting very long Nick managed to pull them apart.

I looked over and saw Leigh Ann on the phone. I wondered who she was talking to. Then it clicked she was calling the police on Brian.

I walked over to her, took the phone out of her hand and hung it up.

"What are you doing" She yelled at me.

"What IM I doing, your the reason all of this happened , if you knew how to keep your legs closed, none of this would of happened." I yelled now up in her face.
CHAPTER SEVEN

Nick saw the girls arguing. He tapped Brian and pointed at us.

"Look at what you did" Nick said to him

Brian looked at the girls and all of his anger subsided and he felt guilty for putting Jersey through this on her first day here.

He walked over to Jersey and Leigh Ann and yelled at both of them.

"What do you two think your doing" Brian asked yelling at both of them

"Ask blondie her she started it" Jersey stated to her brother.

"your the one who pranced over here like the snob you are and hung up the phone" Leigh Ann yelled in Jersey face.

"You were calling the cops on Brian when your the reason all of this happened" Jersey yelled back.

"STOP" Brian yelled at both at us.

"Brian please leave" Leigh Ann said pointing to the door.

"Fine, but remember this Leigh Ann I loved you and cared about you,so don't come running back when this so called "man" dumps you" Brian yelled at her and walked out.

*Next Day*
"Mmmm toast" Jersey said grabbing Nick's toast right out of his hand.

"Hey' Nick yelled

"Well you didn't look like you were going to eat it" Jersey said smiling

" I forgive you, just don't to it again" Nick warned

"I won't daddy" Jersey said playfully

"SO what are we doing today" Jersey said looking over to Brian.

"I'm not doing anything today" Brian said sadly

"Me neither" Nick said

'But... But... this is my second day here I have to explore" Jersey said whiningly

"To bad" Nick said getting up.

"B.J. what are you doing today" Jersey asked

"Nothing" B.J. said blankly

"Wanna go to the mall with me" Jersey asked getting excited.

"No thank you" B.J. said and went to go into the living room with Nick

God what is with these people Jersey thought. She got up smacked Brian in the head and ran upstairs to go change.

When she got up stairs to change she decided to call her best friend
Sicily. She picked up the phone and dialed her number, after about 16 rings nobody picked up. Hmmm Jersey thought to herself.

"Oh well" Jersey said out loud and walked over to her closet.

She picked out a baby blue Spaghetti strap shirt and khaki shorts. She put on her shoes and looked at herself in the mirror, (see Jersey was a very pretty girl imagine Carmen Electra, she had medium black hair with blonde chunky highlights and the bluest eyes, you could probably ever see.) she looked at herself one last time and walked downstairs. To find everyone in the family room.

"Guys, I'm going to explore. Jersey said looking at B.J. "Sure you don't wanna go B.J."

"I have nothing better to do" B.J. said and got up to get dressed.

"Great, you can show me where the mall is" Jersey said excitedly
CHAPTER EIGHT

*In the car*
" So Jersey where are you from" B.j. said trying to make conversation.

"Kentucky" Jersey said trying to concentrate on the road.

B.J. started flipping through Jersey CD's. She noticed Britney Spears, Christina Aguleria, Mya , Backstreet Boys, N'sync,, and one marked Demo tape. Couriously B.J. took it out and put it in the CD player.

"What did you put in" Jersey asked.

"I don't know it was marked demo tape" B.J. said as Jersey's voice filled the car.

Jersey nervously turned it down. She glanced at B.j., she was smiling.

"Hey turn that up" B.J. said turning up the stereo.

"Who is this" B.J. asked Jersey.

"You wouldn't believe it if I told you"

"Yeah I would who" B.J. said in suspense.

"It's... me" Jersey said sighing.

"You have a beautiful voice" B.J. said shocked and astonished.

"Well where's the mall" Jersey said changing the subject.

"You turn here and go about a mile and we're there" B.J. said realizing that Jersey wasn't so bad after all.

*Back at the house*

"So Brian what do you wanna do today "Nick asked wishing he would have gone with Jersey.

"Like I said before nothing" Brian said thinking about Leigh Ann

"Well, then I'm leaving, cause I'm getting bored" Nick said clearly

"Bye" Brian said not even looking up.

Nick walked out of the house hoped into his truck and found himself on the way to the mall.

* Back at the mall*

"Wow this mall is so much bigger than the one in Kentucky"
Jersey said walking into the huge mall.

'I know it takes about 4 hours to get around the whole thing" B.J. said walking into Camelot.

"Wait up" Jersey said running to catch up.

"Oh I'm sorry" Nick said looking down. "Jersey".

Jersey looked up and noticed she ran into Nick.

"Hey what are you doing here" Jersey said walking with Nick into Camelot.

"I got bored at the house" Nick said walking over to the singles section.

"Oh"

"Hey B.J. look who I found in the mall" Jersey said pointing at Nick.

B.J. looked up and saw Jersey pointing at Nick. B.J. motioned for Jersey to come over there.

"What" Jersey said looking at the CD's.

"Look what I found" B.J. said holding up a very old BSB CD.

"Look there's Nick and Brian, and Kevin." Jersey told B.J.
CHAPTER NINE

"I know and there's A.J. and Howie" B.J. told her.

"Well, we better be going, we still have lots of stores to visit" B.J. said dragging Jersey and Nick out of the store

Jersey , B.J. , and Nick walked around the mall for about an hour and didn't find anything except for a few odds and ends. SO they decided to leave, amazingly only about 5 girls recognized Nick.

"Bye" Jersey said to Nick.

" See you back at the house" Nick said back

*Back at the house

Brian sat there and wondered what had happened with Leigh ann. We were so happy he thought. Just then a knock knocked Brian out of his train of thought. He opened the door to find....

Leigh Ann.

"Hey Brian" Leigh Ann said with sincerity

"What do you want" Brian said bitterly

"Oh Brian you were right I love you not Josh" Leigh Ann said starting to cry

"To bad Leigh Ann I told you last night were through" Brian said bitterly slamming the door in her face.

Just then B.j. and Jersey pulled up, to find Brian talking to Leigh Ann.

"What's she doing here" Jersey asked B.J.

" I don't know but I'm about to find out" B.J. said jumping out of the car.

"What do you want Leigh Ann" B.J. said yelling at her.

"Nothing now, I'm leaving please get out of my way" Leigh Ann said pushing B.J. out of her way.

Jersey watched B.,J. do nothing but walk in the house.

Jersey walked by Leigh Ann and bumped into her.

Leigh Ann turned around and spit at Jersey.

"Your just like your brother worthless" Leigh Ann said.

"Well I'd rather be worthless than a slut' Jersey yelled back.

Leigh Ann slapped her across the face. At this Brian was walking out the door.

"It's on now" Jersey said punching and jumping on Leigh Ann.

"NICK" Brian yelled

"What" Nick Said running out the door looking at the two girls fighting.

"HEY" Nick yelled running after the two of them.

"Stop that" Brian yelled.

Nick finally got them apart, he looked at Leigh Ann who Brian was holding who was pretty messed up. He looked at Jersey she barely had a scratch on her. Damn he thought I ain't gonna mess with her. Nick thought.

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*Two Weeks Later*

"God Brian it's been two weeks already why are you still mad at me" Jersey said trying to reason with her brother.

"I'm not mad at you for fighting with Leigh Ann because she deserved but it's the fact you ate my toast this morning" Brian said laughing.
CHAPTER TEN

"You dork that's what you were mad at". Jersey said slapping her brother in the head and running outside.

*two hours later*

Dear Diary,
In the past two weeks things have been pretty boring. B.J. is starting to like me more, and we do everything together. I think I'm starting to develop a crush on Nick, how could you not he is so HOTT. Well I haven't started school yet because when I came they were off for some weird thing I can't remember what for, but it looks like I won't be going back to school either because Brian's leaving to go on tour.. He asked me last night if I wanted to come I said sure, I mean what else is there to do, I'm trying to get B.J. to go but she's totally against it. I'll get to meet A.J. and Howie. I met A.J. about a week ago he seems nice but he's sorta the bad boy type. Well words are runnin short. Bye

Yours,
Jersey Renee Machelle Littrell
P.S. That is my full name I'm named after my grand-mother

Jersey closed up her diary and decided to call her best friend Sicily.

RING RING RING RING RING RING

"Hello" A groggily person said

"Hello is your refrigerator running" Jersey said trying not to laugh

"Yes who is this" Sicily said getting mad

" I'm very disappointed in you not realizing who I am" Jersey said half mad

"Jers, oh my gosh I'm so sorry, how's things going there" Sicily said excitedly.

"Things are going fine when are you going to come visit me "

'I don't know I've been waiting on your call"

" Well let me talk to Brian and call you back tomorrow because it's getting late here"

"Okay, bye"

"Bye" At that Jersey hung up the phone and walked downstairs.

As Jersey walked downstairs she heard laughing coming out of the family room. So she walked in without knocking only to find Nick with a girl making out on the couch.

"Hope I'm not interrupting anything" Jersey said as she waited for Nick to respond.

"Jersey " Nick said jumping off of the girl later I found out named Saveighia.

"Sorry, bye" Jersey said half way making it out the door before Nick yelled at her.

"Jers wait" Jersey turned around and gave Nick a disgusting look.

'What" Jersey said realizing she felt so much more than a little crush for Nick, she was realizing she was falling in love with him.

"Can you wait for me outside please: Nick said kissing her on the cheeks.

Before leaving Saveighia turned to Jersey and said" Why did you
have to show up me and Nick were having so much fun"

Jersey gave her a look of disgust and walked away from the door so she could leave.

"I don't see what your so upset about... I mean were not going out or anything"

"Don't you think I know that Nick, I come in he expecting to see Brian and you joking around but NO your making out with a girl" Jersey yelled

CHAPTER ELEVEN

Nick started to speak but Jersey stopped him" No I'm not finished, and second of all this is my house to ya know and you could off at least locked the door" Jersey said finally finished

"Well you should learn to knock " Nick said yelling in her face before storming out of the den"

Jersey stood there and ran out after him yelling "I'm not finished with you yet the whole way.

What's up with them" Brian asked B.J.

"Who knows, you know how they flirt" B.J. responded

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Jersey stood there in her room and thought about why she overreacted when she saw Nick. Then she started to call her boyfriend Jose but she stopped and ran down to talk to Nick instead.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

"Come in" She heard Nick say

"Hey" Jersey said really soft.

"What do you want, don't you think you said enough" Nick said still mad at her.

"I came to apologize you were right I shouldn't of acted that way were not going out" Jersey said with a little bit of shakiness in her voice.

Jersey looked up saw Nick smiling at her. She looked at him and for the first time starred into his beautiful ocean like eyes. "There mesmerizing" Jersey thought. "They could just take your very soul right from you.

"Jersey. Jersey " Nick snapped

"Uh oh what' Jersey said blushing. She did not wanna look in a mirror right now because her whole face was a crimson red.

" I accept your apology" Nick said almost laughing at her funny expression.

As Jersey turned to walk away Nick stopped her.

" Oh Jersey, can I ask you a favor"

"Yeah what" Jersey said unsure of what he was going to ask her

" Can I do this" Nick said as he softly kissed her but with much passion.

The two just stood there holding each other and kissing. Their moment interrupted with Brian walked in . Jersey quickly pulled apart from Nick

"What's going on here" Brian said in a slight louder tone this his usual voice.

"Nothing"" Nick said blushing.

"If I hadn't come in what do you think could of happened' Brian said now yelling.

"Yeah right" Jersey said not meaning to.

"Ha Ha Ha" Brian said laughing.

"What's so funny" Nick asked

"You thought I was serious, I was waiting for you two to hook up." Brian said in fits of laughter.

Jersey just looked at Nick then to Brian and to ease the tension started to laugh with her big brother.
Nick slightly nudged her with his elbow.

"Ow" She yelled out loud

"What" Nick said looking at her like shut up.

CHAPTER TWELVE

"Why did you elbow me" Jersey said

"What are you talking 'bout" Nick said laughing.

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Later that night

"Hey B.j." Jersey said as she walked downstairs

What" She yelled back

" Did you decide if your were going or not" Jersey asked

"Yeah and I decided to go" B.J. said half regretting her decision

"Really" Jersey said in excitement.

"Yes, Now leave me alone about it" B.J. said throwing a pillow at her.

Jersey picked up the pillow and threw back at her and pretty soon the girls were in a huge pillow fight.

**2 weeks later**

Dear Diary,
In the past months, I've really grown as a person I think. Tomorrow is the day we go on tour. I really can't wait.!. Me and Nick have been spending a lot more time together. I still can't believe how soft his lips felt. Well B.j. and me are like sisters. We do everything together. Oh and last week mom called for the first time in 12 years. She wanted to no the usual if we were still alive as if she even cared. She said she wanted me to come and live with her but of course I told her no Brian said he didn't even know where she got his number. He didn't talk to her but I wanted to see what she wanted to say. My father was buried a couple of weeks ago. I missed the funeral but oh well. In the next six months I'll probably have less and less time to write in you but I'm taking you along on the tour and will write in you every other chance I get.

Yours,
Jersey

**The Next Day**

Jersey awoke to the sound of her brother singing in the shower. Not very pleasant this early in the morning.

" Brian, shut up" She heard Nick yelled.

Jersey got out of bed and looked at her reflection in the morning. She definitely looked better without black eyes and cuts from the rings on her father's fingers. Jersey shook the thought out of her mind and got dressed. She put on her purple halter top and her favorite pair of Capri pants. As she walked down stairs she noticed Nick walking out the door and Brian eating his breakfast, his hair still dripping from the shower.

"Hey Bri" Jersey said cheerfully.

"Hewyhsduih"Brian said sorta tiredly.

"Oh you can sing but can't talk." Jersey said laughing

Jersey heard a door slam and looked to see who came in or who left. When she went to look around the corner she ran into someone.

"Oh" Jersey yelled.

"Sorry bout that" A.j. said looking down at what he knocked into.

"That's okay" Jersey said looking up, and smiling

"She's taken" Nick said walking into the door

" I'm not yours " Jersey said laughing

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"Wow, This bus is huge". Jersey said with excitement

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

"We'll be leaving in another 2 minutes, so if you forgot something oh well". Said the bus driver.

Jersey watched as Nick and the other boys flung their stuff onto beds and propped their selves down on the huge couch.

"So, where's your first show" Jersey said.

Nick looked at her and replied " New York,"

"Really! I always wanted to go there and hit the shops, and malls.". Jersey said very excitedly

"Wow ! " Nick said acting surprised

"Very , funny dork" Jersey said as she watched Nick grab his chest in pain.

Changing the subject she assumed. A.j. asked her a whole bunch of questions.

"Well were you from Jersey? A.J. asked realizing how stupid his question was

" Lexington, Kentucky" She said with a sudden country drawl

"You know A.J. Brian and I are brother and sister" Jersey said

" I know I was just trying to break the ice" A.J. said blushing

Jersey looked over and saw Nick staring at her, she started to say something but she stopped herself, she just stared back and smiled. He quickly looked away when she smiled .She started to blush.

"Hey back to the 411 on Jersey" Howie said

"Okay shoot give me a question" Jersey said laughing

"Okay favorite color, movie, actor, actress, band, CD, person, and backstreet boy" A.J. said very fast

" All right, purple, Save the Last Dance, Brad Pitt, Jenn Aniston, *NSYNC, Princess Diana, and I really don't have a favorite. Jersey said smiling at A,J.

"*NSYNC, they suck " Nick said excitedly.

" Well there a lot cuter than you guys you know" Jersey said challenging Nick

" They are not" Nick said defensively

"Children stop" Kevin exclaimed

"Sorry daddy" Nick said with puppy dog eyes

*2 hours later*

As I sat there starring at Nick sleeping I realized what I felt for him.

"Hey" A.J. said coming out from the back

"Hey, what's up"

" Nothing much being on the road is pretty boring all except the stage." He said sighing

" Yeah, I used to perform in my school's choir, but ...." I sighed off A.J. looked at me with curiosity.

"What"

"Well, when my dad starting drinking I couldn't participate anymore, because I had to take care of him, and then when he used his fist to tell me things, I stopped singing completely, and I just never did it again," I said with hurt in my voice.

"I'm sorry... If I didn't have music I don't know what I would do" A,j. wrapping his arm around me.

" I think that's why I held such animosity towards Brian because he sorta crushed my dream ya know, if he hadn't of left , maybe none of this would of happened and it be me up there ya know" I said looking at A.J. realizing he was very sweet"

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

"yeah I know what you mean, I would like to hear you someday." he said smiling

" Well, maybe some other time" I said smiling right back

After that we really didn't talk much, and fell asleep on the couch together.

*The next morning*

"HEY" Nick yelled as he shook me awake.

As my eyes opened I saw Nick's blue eyes starring down at me with anger,

"What" I heard A.J. say to Nick

"What is going on here" Nick said jerking me up off the couch

At that Brian, Kevin, B.J. , and Howie came into see what was going on.

A.J. grabbed Nick off of me, and they were arguing until Kevin decided to pull them apart.

"What' s your problem Nick" I asked him with angerment

"I come in here to find my girl, sleeping with another guy"

"First off Nick I'm not your GIRL, and second off you should get your eyes checked because what you thought you saw was nothing" Jersey walking off into the back of the bus.

Nick plopped himself onto the couch and just sat there in silence, for the next two hours when Jersey decided to come out from the back.

"Hey" I said to Nick as he looked up

"Hey", Nick said with embarrassment

"Nick, it was innocent," Jersey said rubbing the back of his neck.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN

"I know, I just got a little jealous"

" A little" Jersey said laughing

*Entering the Hotel*

"We're here" The driver yelled from the front

As we all got our things and got off the bus, hundreds of screaming girls came running for us and we had to hall it to the entrance, As we entered I noticed that this place was huge, nothing like back in Kentucky.

"Wow" I said accidentally out loud

"I know no matter how many hotels you stay in you never get used to the luxuries" Howie said rubbing my shoulder

"So shall we go get our rooms" Kevin said walking up to the front room

We got our rooms, and went to the elevator to the top floor Kevin and Howie were sharing a room, A.J. , won the coin toss so he got a room to himself, Brian and Nick shared a room, and B.J. and I shared a room. As we got off the elevator the bellboy had already brung up our stuff and it was waiting by our doors.

I entered room # 618, and quickly was in awe of myself. It had a kitchen, a living room, a very large bathroom, and one huge master bedroom, and , two smaller rooms, and conjoining door with Brian and Nicks.

"Wow B.J. have your ever been in a hotel like this", I asked B.J.

She came out of the kitchen plopped down on the couch, and simply replied" Yes"

At that a knock came on the door, and Nick and the other boys popped their heads in.

"Yeah" B.J. asked Nick

"Well we have to go do ,and sound check, at the arena and were wondering if you would like to go" A.J. answered.

"Yeah that would be cool' Jersey replied

B.J. decided not to go, and stayed at the hotel, she would come out later.

*Arena*

As we pulled into the arena, I noticed the guys staring at me.

"What" I said quizzically

"Oh nothing" Howie said looking at the other guys and laughing.

"No really what" I said looking at Nick, and then back to Howie

"Well, we were just admiring your good looks" A.J. said kissing my hand

"Excuse me" I said weirdly

They just looked at me and burst out laughing.

"Guy's what"

Nick pointed at my shirt, and as I looked down I noticed I put my shirt on backwards.

"Well, I guess my sense of direction is shot" I said trying to play it off laughing.

*Inside the Arena*

"Wow this place is huge" Jersey said walking into the boys dressing room.

At that the boys manager I assumed burst into the door, and look of fright on his face.

"Guys, I have bad news"

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

"What, what's wrong" Kevin said

"Well the opening act LYE just pulled out their sick or something."

I looked around at the other guys, and they were just blankly looking at each other

"What are we going to do guys, we can't find a replacement on this short notice" Brian said sorta sadly

"Wait a minute" A.J. said, "Jersey sings"

They all looked at me and just stared

"We..l...ll...u...hhhh.....I'm not...that..g..ooo....dddd" Jersey finally blurted out

"Well it's worth a shot" The manager said "sing for us"

"I don't even have any songs to sing" Jersey nervously

"Well now what" Howie said

"Well don't look so down your not missing anything" Jersey said trying to joke
"Look you guys I'll do it, back on the bus I have a tape of original songs, if somebody will go get it I'll sing for you" I said finally giving in.

"Great, your a life saver, Jers" Nick said kissing me on the cheek and running out the door, a few seconds later he came back in " Where is the tape" He said embarrassed

"In my CD player in my bunk"

"Great" He said running out again

*********

"Okay Jersey sing" The manager asked

"Oh....oh...kay, um just push play, and the music should come on" I said nervously

Nick pushed play and Jersey started to sing

My love for you is true...
Every time I look at you
My love just starts risen
I want are love to be
as big as the horizon

When you need me
I'll be there
When your lonely
I'll keep you company
When your crying
I'll wipe the tears away
When you scared
I'll dismiss your fears
I think I'm in love you

"All right that's enough" The manager guy, Larry, said pushing the tape player
"You'll do"

I hugged him and thanked him about a million times.

After the congratulations from the guys , I went to call and tell everybody, and then to rehearsals, being I only had 3hrs before show time.

*Rehearsal*

"Come on Jersey, you can do this" Brian said reassuring me.

"It's just I don't even have anything , like a band or dancers, or costumes" I said sitting on the steps

"Look, Jers, it's okay, you'll do great, we all appreciate, this so much" Brian said hugging her.

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

*Show time*

"Guy's I can't do this" Jersey said running outside.

After a few minutes A.J. came out, and sat down beside her, and the two just sat in silence for about 5 minutes.

"Look Jersey, this is a big opportunity for you, you told yourself how much you wished it was you up their not Brian" A.J. said hugging her

"Look A.J., I've wanted this my whole life, but..." She said trailing off

"But what, if you want it that badly , you can't give this up" He said standing up
"Are you coming" He said reaching out is hand to her

"Yeah, I'm coming" Jersey said grabbing his hand.

*Inside*

"Five minutes Jersey" The make-up guy said

"Don't remind me" I said with a slight laugh

"Jersey your needed on stage in about one minute"

As Jersey walked to the stage she got a good luck kiss from Nick.

"What was that for" Jersey asked savoring his kiss

"Just for good luck" Nick said kissing her one more time

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"Ladies and Gents, how yawl doing out there to tonight" Screams erupted "Well let's say we get this show started" More screams " Please give a warm welcome, to.... Jersey, she's new so give her some love" More screams, has Jersey walked across the stage.

"He how's it goin" Screams " Well has you heard I'm sorta knew at this, but what you may not know is that I'm Brian's sister" At that the screams became deafening. "Well I don't have any dancers, but I do got some moves, here's a very personal song, it's MY Guy"

The lights went down and Jersey knew it was show time, as the crowd silenced the music came on and Jersey started....

Baby boy you are so fine
I want you to be mine
I think about you all the time
Everyday and every night
My love for you is so true
Every time I'm close to you
My heart starts to undo

I think I'm falling for you
So tell me baby what to do
My heart races ye___ah
I'm waiting to let go
of my control
Cause baby I'm in love you

Baby I adore you
So come on baby I'll be true to you
The world deserves you and I
Time just passes bye
I don't want no other guys
just you

I think I'm falling for you
So tell me baby what to do
My heart races ye___ah
I'm waiting to let go
of control
Cause baby I love you

My love grows for you everyday
My lips are just a kiss away

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Baby I dream of you
Boy I give my heart to you
In ways that are so true

I'm think I'm falling in love with you
So baby tell me what to do
My heart races for you
I'm waiting to let go
of my control
Cause baby I love you
Cause baby I love you...

Screams erupted after Jersey was finished, she did three more songs, and was a big hit the crowd loved her, as she came off stage Nick and the other guys were there to congratulate her.

"You did great" A.J. said hugging her.

"Wow, I can believe I just did that" Jersey said replying.

"Well, now it's our time" Brian said hugging her.

As the boys walked out on stage the arena literally shook. The boys did a two and a half hour set, and finished with Drowning. As the boys were coming off the stage, Nick ran over to me and wiped is sweat all over me.

"Ewwwwww" Jersey said pushing him off of her.

"I thought you liked it wet" Nick said laughing

"Ha Ha very funny" I said sarcastically

*Back at the Hotel*

"Omigod B.J. you missed an incredible night, why didn't you come"

"Well I wasn't feeling to well, why are you so happy"
"Well do you remember that day when went to the mall and you listened to my demo tape" Jersey paused and waited for an answer, after B.J. nodded she continued, "Well, the boy's opening act Lye, was a no show , and yours truly filled the spot.

B.J. jumped up, "Your kidding"

"Nope, I killed to, they loved me, oh it felt so good" Jersey said jumping up and heading to the door.

"Where are you going this time of night"

"I can't sleep now I have this fan high, like I could do anything right now, be back later, bye" Jersey said leaving.

"Bye" B.J. said to late Jersey was already gone, "Oh well she said to herself, and went back to bed.

*Jersey*

Jersey walked to the elevator, and in the process ran into Nick yet again.

" Hey, what are you doing" Nick asked.

"Oh I couldn't sleep, I feel like I could fly if I wanted to" Jersey said smiling

"Where are you going"

"Oh I don't know, maybe to Central Park, I don't know anywhere, would you like to come with me" Jersey asked Nick

"Sure let me go change" Nick said running back into his room

In what seemed like seconds Nick was out and ready to go.

"Shall we go my lady" Nick said linking my arm with his

"Certainly" I said laughing

CHAPTER NINETEEN

As the two walked out of the hotel, they noticed that even at this time of hour fans and photographers were still waiting out side for a glimpse of one of the boys.

"Well do you want to go through the front or the back entrance" Nick asked squeezing my hand.

"Let's go through the front and maybe they won't recognize you"

"Us you mean, your a star now you know.

"Oh really, 5 songs and I'm a star" Jersey said looking up at Nick

They both looked at each other for a minute, until Nick broke the silence

"Your eyes, are really beautiful, Jersey" He said running his hand along the back of her neck.

Jersey looked away embarrassed, and smiled.

"Uh we should be going" She said still with a smile and started to walk off

"Hold on" Nick said grabbing her arm," I wanted to give you something before we left.

"What" She said walking back up to him

"This" he said reaching into his pocket, and out of the blue gave her a kiss.

Their very passionate kiss lasted at least a couple of minutes. During their kiss Jersey could hear the fans start to scream, as the recognized who was kissing. Photographers were also snapping tons of pictures.

AS they broke apart they nervously looked at each other.

"What a gift" Jersey finally said

"Well it came from the heart" He said flashing one of his many sexy smiles.
'Um we really should be going" Nick said as they walked out of the lobby and into the street with fans, and photographers. Nick just took Jersey's hand and pushed through the crowd to the street where the started towards Central Park. After a couple minutes of silence Jersey broke it.

"Do you ever get tired of it"

"Tired of what" Nick said looking at her.

"The fan's, the screaming, the flashes, everything"

"Jersey, I love doing what I'm doing, it makes me feel good to hear them scream my name and sing our song's." He said turning away from her

"Don't get mad it was just a question" Jersey said touching his shoulder.

Nick stopped walking, and looked at her, "She's beautiful" he thought as the moonlight hit her face.

"Jersey can I ask you something"

"Sure"

"Um I know this isn't formal or anything but "He hesitated " Will you be my girl"
He paused and waited for a response, after a couple of seconds," If you don't want to I understand completely" He said and started to walk way.

"No Nick wait' He stopped, "I'd love to be your girl, but I have a boyfriend. She said looking at him for a reaction.

"You what" He said yelling at me. " You let me embarrass myself in front all those people, and you didn't tell me." He yelled and walked rather fast away.

"Look Nick, I didn't tell you because I didn't want to hurt you, I like you and I didn't want to ruin that.

He paused and looked at me "You lied to me Jersey" "You,,,

CHAPTER TWENTY

Jersey cut him off. " I never told you I had a boyfriend, you just thought I was available, you just thought I was your girl after you kissed me in your room." Jersey yelled and ran away, not waiting for a response.

*Back at the hotel"

Jersey ran into the entrance not worrying about anybody the fans or the photographer. Jersey ran all the way up to her room not even taking the elevator. She ran into quite a few people but she didn't care. After she stopped running, she remember she left her key in the room, and it was so late B.J. was probably asleep. " What im I going to do" She said sorta out loud to herself. When she got to her floor, she decided to wake up Brian, and bunk with him.

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"Come on Brian answer" Jersey said to herself she heard footsteps behind her and turned to see who it was. It was Nick entering his room.

He paused ad looked at her, "What's wrong, locked out" He said with a slight attitude.

"What does it look like" at that Brian opened the door, and Jersey flung herself in to avoid anymore conversation, with Nick tonight.

"Jersey ,what do you want" He said still half asleep.

"Um I locked myself out, can I sleep here"

"Yeah, but I get the bed you can sleep on the couch"

" Thanks" she said hugging him.

*The next morning*

"Wake up sleepy head" Brian said loudly in Jersey's ear.

"Ugh, what time is it" She said groggily

"Um about 8:20"

"Why did you wake me so early" She said sitting up

"Because I thought maybe you'd like to see this" He said handing her a stack of newspapers.

"Brian it's to early to read" She said taking the newspaper

"No look at the front pages" He said pointing at the New York times, The Sun, and The Globe.

Jersey looked down at the cover story, and right there was a picture of her and Nick kissing, and the headlines said "Nick Carter and mystery date find time to kiss"
"Mystery kisser and Nick Carter shared a lot more than coversation" "Backstreet Boy Nick Carter finds new love"

" Where do you get these" Jersey said jumping up.

"Hotels deliver their guest newspapers" He said laughing " So Jers are you going to tell me what really happened last night or do I have to call Nick" He said looking at Jersey waiting for a response.

"Well it's none of you business, but I was excited about last night, and I ran into Nick on my way to the park, and we decided to take a walk, and he kissed me, and I came to your room because we had a fight because he asked me out and I told him about Jose, and I was upset so I came to your room"

Brian looked at her and laughed. " Your pathetic sis" He said as he walked out the door.

Jersey walked into the bathroom, and looked at herself in the mirror. "Ugh, I look horrible" Jersey decided to go wake B.J. up and make herself look better.

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She heard B.J. "Hold on"

The door opened, "Well well well, if it's not the little love bird now"

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

"Please don't start" Jersey said pushing through the door.

"So... Why didn't you come home last night" B.J. said on the couch.

Jersey looked at her and walked into the bathroom, but before she entered she turned to B.J. " Well, I 'll tell you when I'm looking a little better, and feel better, I'll be out in a minute and with that she went in and took a very long long shower.

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Jersey heard the door and figured B.J. would get it. A couple minutes later she heard talking and decided to get out of the bath to see who it was.

*****Jersey's all done*****

"Hey B.J. who was that at the.... Her sentence trailed off as she seen who was sitting on the couch, it was Jose.

"What are you doing here" Jersey said turning to Jose.

He got up and walked to her" Well I heard you were in town and came to surprise you know since I go to school up here, and when I get into the Hotel what's the first thing I see this" He through the newspaper at her, he paused and waited for a response.

"I.. can. explain" She said turning to see B.J. walk out of the room.

"You better have a good explanation" He said grabbing her shirt

"Let go of me" She said jerking away from him.

She heard the door open and saw B.J. come in with Howie.

"Look I think you need to go, and when you've calmed down we can discuss this" Jersey said as she started to walk to Howie.

"Oh no" Jose said grabbing her arm and jerking it up " Were going to discuss this now."

"Hey I wouldn't do that if I was" Howie said walking up to him. " Are you okay"

"Yeah" I said going over to B.J.

"Who the hell are you" Jose said shoving Howie.

"I think you need to leave" Howie said pushing him towards the door.

"Fine no problems, we'll talk later Jersey, and for the mean time, you stay away from Nick Carter, or you'll both get what's coming to you"

"Were through Jose, it's over" Jersey said slamming the door shut.

Howie walked over to her and hugged her,. "What did I do" she thought.

"Look I'll go get Brian" B.J. said.

"No no, I'm fine" she said wiping her tears away.

****Later that night****

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"Come on answer" Jersey thought to herself

The door opened, and Nick came to the door.

"Please don't shut the door, we need to talk" Jersey said walking into the room.

Jersey waited nervously for Nick to come sit on the couch with her.
He shut the door, and walked over to her.

"Well" Nick said sitting down

"I'm so sorry, I didn't tell you, it was just I liked you a whole lot, and we weren't really dating at the time we were on a big break and..."
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

Nick interrupted her" Look Jersey, I don't need your lame apologizes okay, It hurt me that you would let me act like a fool and you knew that you didn't want me, So please leave" He said walking to the door and opening it.

Tearfully Jersey looked at him "I did want you... that was the problem," She said walking out.

As she heard the door shut behind her, she slid down the wall and started to cry.

"What have I done" Jersey said out loud to herself. At that she heard a door shut and she saw A.J. coming out of his room, Jersey quickly stood up and wiped her face.

"What's wrong" He said walking up to her and wiping the tears from her eyes.

"I ruined it, I really did it this time, A.J." Jersey said as she started to cry again.

"Did what Jers, what did you do" He said as he started to hug her

Jersey looked up at him with those big blue eyes of hers and said" Nick, I liked him so much, and because of one secret he hates me, and I ruined it, I wasn't even sure me and Jose were still going out" She started to weep on A.J.'s shoulder

"Come on beautiful don't cry, you'll smear your make-up"

"Ha ha ha, look I'm ah sorry um I'm gonna go back to my room" Jersey said as she started to walk away.

When she turned to walk away Nick was standing at his door smiling. Jersey looked at him, and he walked up to her and hugged her.

"If it makes you feel any better, I broke up with Jose" She said looking up at him

"Don't worry about that I acted like a jerk"

"No I was the jerk, I didn't tell you"

He bent down and gave her a peck on the lips" I missed those lips of yours"
Jersey returned the kiss gladly. "Well, does this mean you still wanna go with me"
She looking into his eyes.

"Well,...let me think about it and I'll tell you in the morning" He said flashing a gorgeous smile.

"Awwww, how sweet" A.J., said laughing

Jersey walked over to him "Thanks, for making me feel better "She said hugging him.

He turned away walked back into his room.

Nick walked over to Jersey and gave her one last kiss before going into his room.

Jersey walked into her room and B.J, was sitting on the couch, when she saw Jersey she clicked off the television,. " Well are you going to tell me what happened"

"Well, last night I went for a walk and ran into Nick we decided to go together and in the lobby he kissed me, and he asked me out, and I told him about Jose, and we had a huge fight, and tonight we made up"

"Girl, your life is totally screwed up"

"hahahahahah, I know, well going to bed" Jersey walked into her bedroom took a quick shower and quickly fell asleep.

*The next morning*

RING RING RING

"Hello" a very sleeply Jersey answered

"Yes we have a delivery for Miss Littrell, would you like to come get or would you rather we bring it up" The clerk finished

"Um please bring it up, ok thank you"

Click the line went dead.
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

Jersey decided to get up and get in the shower before her delivery came.
Afterwards she had decide what to wear. She decided on a thin strapped short summer dress and decided to wear her hair up in twists, and in a few minutes she was ready, about the time she came out of the bathroom, there was a knock at the door Jersey quickly answered to find out what her delivery was.

When she opened the door the clerk was standing there with a tray with a red rose, blue violets and an envelope addressed to Miss Jersey Littrell.

"Thank you" Jersey said as she took the rose and envelope.

"Who's there" B.J. said coming out of the bedroom.

"Oh it was a delivery for me. "Jersey said opening the envelope

"Well what was it"

"These" Jersey said holding up the flowers "and this" She said reading the letter.

"What does it say"

"It's from Nick"

B.J. walked over to her and waited for her to read it to her"

" Roses are red
Violets are blue
I think I'm in love with you.

Please join me tonight for and elegant evening of dancing and dinner at Tuscany
Your driver for the evening will pick you up at 7:00pm sharp *Don't be late, you'll get the answer you've been waiting for!

~ Nick ~
"ahhhhhhh how sweet" B.J. said after reading the note.

"I gotta go shopping, for something to wear" Jersey said grabbing her purse and heading out the door.

She quickly returned " I don't have any money" She said embarrassed

"Wait , this came for you this morning "She said handing her an envelope

Jersey looked inside, and there was five thousand dollars "B.J. that's a lot of money"

"It's for the other night it was a thank you from Jive for saving there asses.

"Oh, B.J., your a life saver," Jersey said grabbing the envelope and running out the door.

In the hall way she ran into Kevin "Hey where ya going in such a hurry"

Slowing down she answered "Shopping I have to buy a dress for the evening, I have a date"

"With who"

"Don't act so surprised" She said sarcastically "With Nick"

He looked and gave her that protective smile.

"Are you sure Brian is okay this"

" I'm seventeen, I don't need Brian's approval" Jersey with an attitude

"Calm down, I was just saying Nick's a lot older than you"

"Not by much, only a few years, and I'm perfectly fine with it, who are you anyway"

He looked at her " Look Jersey, I'm happy for you and all it's just your young and naive"

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

"Kevin, I have to get going, if I'm going to make it on time tonight" Jersey said pushing him out off the way and getting on the elevator

"The nerve off him" Jersey thought to herself.

As the elevator took her to the lobby she thought about where she was going to shop.

DING

She stepped out of the elevator and went out onto the streets of New York.
She decided to go up one street and then go down the other. Her first stop was Armani Exchange.

"Hello Miss may I help you" A sales clerk in her early fifty's asked

"Yes, I'm looking for a cocktail dress not to fancy but just the right splash of sexy."

"Well, let me take you upstairs to our evening gowns"

They walked up the stairs and Jersey was beyond herself in the style of these dresses.

"Wow, there lovely"

"Yes we have the best designers" She said walking over to a pile of dresses left over probably by her last "client" " This should be perfect, what size are you dear"

"Oh ugh five" Jersey said looking at the dress.

"Here try this one and if it's too small or to big we'll fix it"

"Thank you" She said taking the dress

A few minutes later Jersey walked out of the dressing room " Oh miss how lovely, it enhances in all the right places"

"I like it, it's really nice" She said looking in the mirror.

The dress was a sleeveless, light blue with sequins around the top, belly, and bottom.

"I'll take it" She said going back into the dressing room and coming back out with her original clothes and the dress in her left arm.

"Well let's go check you out then"

Jersey quickly checked out and the dress was only $350.00. She decided to go into other stores though and see what they had. Her next stop was Ralph Lauren. She walked in and the sales lady wasn't as nice as the other actually this one was rather rude.

Jersey went over to a rack off elegant gowns, and started to look

"Can I help you" The lady said in a rather stingy tone

"No thanks, I'm just looking," Jersey said returning the same tone.

"Well, we prefer for our customers, to buy not just look"

"Well, in that case I'll take this, that, oh and that too, oh look at that that is simply gorgeous I'll take, that ,that and I'll take that, did you get that all done" Jersey said smiling at her.

The sales lady smiled at her and started to get her stuff.

At the checkout counter Jersey ended up with a pair of sneakers, a watch , two shirts, a pair of pants, a hat, some fingernail polish, and some glitter.

"Thank you come again"

"I'll be sure to stop back with my brother you know Brian Littrell, of the Backstreet Boys, Bye now"

She walked out of the store and decided to go back to the hotel since she spent a lot of her money already.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

*Back at the Hotel*

"B.J., wait till you see the dress I bought it's killer" Jersey said taking the dress out of it's wrapper.

"Oh, Jersey" She said walking over to her " It's beautiful"

"I know it hope it's not to much"

"I'm sure it's not your defiantly going to win him over"

"What time is it I have to get ready soon"

B.J. glanced down at her watch "Um...6:30"

Jersey jumped up "Omigod I have to get ready" She said grabbing her dress and ran into her bedroom.

****The same time****

"Brian, I wanna look good for tonight but I don't know what to wear" Nick said holding up two casual jackets.

"Well Nick I think you should go with the one on the left" Brian said pointing to a black leather jacket (You know the one he wears).

"You think, well thanks I'm going to go get into the shower"

Nick said grabbing the jacket and starting to walk out the door.

"Wait Nick" Brian said stopping him"I wanna talk to you"

Nick stepped back into the room "What I'm in a rush"

Brian patted the seat next to him meaning for him to sit down. Nick obeyed and sat down by Brian

"I wanted to talk to you about Jersey" Brian paused and looked at Nick " She's my sister and I love her with everything, and I don't want you to take advantage of her your four years older than her and she's naive"

Nick stood up " Look Brian, I think I'm falling in love with your sister and I respect her to the fullest"

Brian looked up at him" I know Nick" He said patting him on the back " Now go get ready or you'll be late"

With that Nick walked out the door to get ready for his date.

*Back to Jersey*

Jersey walked out of the bathroom ready to go. She had decided to wear her hair in a twisty messy bun type thing, and when she finished putting on her make-up she walked out into the living room.

"Well what do you think" She said referring to the crowd awaiting her.

They all turned to look at her as a hush fell over them all.

"Wow your so hott" A.J. said getting up off the couch.

"Yeah wow" Howie said

"Thanks...I think" Jersey said laughing " What time is it anyway"

"6:55" B.J. said coming out of the kitchen.

"I have to get going" Jersey said grabbing her purse and beginning to walk to the door.

"Bye guys, see you when I get back"

They all chorused "Bye"

Jersey shut the door and entered the hallway. She decided to go see Brian before she left.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

She knocked on the door but no one answered. " Oh well" She said to herself as she walked to the elevator.

*Downstairs*

Jersey walked out onto the streets of New York, and quickly saw her limo. She walked over to it and the driver was waiting for her.

"Good day my lady" He said tipping his cap and opening the door.

"Thank you" Jersey said climbing into the back.

As Jersey got herself situated she noticed a white rose with a note attached. She quickly opened :

Jersey,
Hope your liking your evening so far .
I have much more planned, can't wait to see you!

Love,
Nick

Jersey noticed he signed his name Love, Nick. She smiled at the thought.
The rest of the ride was pretty boring. After about 25 minutes they pulled up to the restaurant. The driver quickly came around to open the door for her.

"Miss" He said reaching out a hand to help her out.

Jersey entered the restaurant, and was greeted by a waiter, "Hello Miss, amy I take you to your seat"

"Actually I'm meeting someone, and I'm not sure if he's here yet"

"Well miss I can certainly check for you what's his name "
"Um Nick Carter"

The waiter looked at his book and then back to her.
"He's waiting for you miss, please follow me"
The waiter took her into a little secluded room, with soft music playing in the back.

She saw a table with another white rose, and another note, she quickly went over to read it:

Jersey:
Turn around !

She obey and turned around and there she saw Nick standing there with a red rose , this time.

She started to walked towards him, and he just stood there smiling at her.

He grabbed her face kissing her, and gave her another envelope

She opened it:

YES

"Yes what" She whispered, looking up

He looked down at her and smiled " Will you be my girlfriend"

She looked up and smiled "Yes"

Nick took her hand and led her to their table.

"This place is beautiful Nick"

"That's why I chose it" He said laughing.

"I always knew you had good taste" Jersey said catching onto the joke.

"Oh yeah" He said replying
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

" You chose me didn't you"

The two looked at each other, and laughed.

There dinner consisted of small talk and a very delicious meal.

*After dinner*

The two walked out of the restaurant hand and hand to their limousine.
They climbed in and made out most of the ride.

After about 25 minutes, they pulled up to there destination.

Nick helped Jersey out and Nick blindfolded her

"Nick what's this for"

"You'll see"

They walked for about a minute and Nick stopped.

"Are we here" Jersey said as Nick removed her blindfold

"Uhh oh Nick it's beautiful" Jersey said as she looked around and noticed they were in a small section of central park. Nick had decorated it with white roses, and Jersey noticed one red. There were candles lit all over and champagne was sitting in ice.

"Nick you shouldn't have" Jersey said walking around.

"It was nothing when your Nick Carter you can do anything" He said laughing.

Jersey bend down and smelled the red rose, it was the sweetest rose she had ever smelled. She picked it up and there was a note on it.
She smiled and opened:

Jersey

If you are reading this the date went good! You didn't run away (HAHA) By the way turn around!

She turned around, and Nick was there with a bouquet of snow drops, her favorite flower. Jersey started to walk to him and he met her half way. She took the flowers and they kissed very passionately.

They broke lose

"Wow" Nick said looking down at her. " Jersey you are so beautiful"

She looked up at him and smiled " Thank you"

Nick took her hand and led her over to a blanket he had laid out. She sat down, and he got them both a glass of champagne. Jersey took it and they toasted to each other, and kissed again. They made out on the blanket for a good fifteen minutes, and finally broke from each other.

"You gotta stop kissing me like that"

"Why" Jersey whispered

"Cause I don't know if I can let you go"

"Then don't" Jersey whispered kissing him again.

They laid down on the blanket and made-out for a great while.

Jersey broke free, and looked down out her watch. She read 1:30am

"Nick we gotta go" Jersey said standing up

"I don't want to"

"Nick we really have to go, Brian would kill me if I was out all night."

"Okay okay" Nick said standing up.
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

They decided to walk back to the hotel and got there about 2:00 am.

They made out more in the elevator and in the hallway outside of Jersey's room.

"Nick stop please I have to get some sleep and so do you you have a show tomorrow" Jersey said kissing him one last time and walking into her room.

She leaned against her door and just yearned for his lips again. Her thoughts interrupted by her sudden tiredness. She walked into her room put on some night clothes and quickly fell asleep.

*The next morning*

Jersey awoke at 9:30 with a great feeling of love. She quickly climbed out of bed, hopped in the shower and decided on a low cut summer shirt and a mini skirt. She did a little make up and pulled her hair into a lose ponytail. She walked out of her room and saw that nobody was there.

"Oh well" She thought.

Jersey grabbed her purse and decided to go for breakfast. She walked to the door and noticed a note:

Jersey
Your were sleeping didn't want to wake you so went for breakfast, then went to the stadium to watch the boys do their rehearsal. Stop by If you have the chance!

B.J.

Jersey decided to stop by after she had breakfast. She decided on a nice little cafe
and quickly ate her meal, and left. She took a taxi to the stadium and couldn't wait to see Nick. She quickly got by security and went to see the boys.

They were all on stage. So she went to the front row with B.J. to watch.

"Hey girl" Jersey said hugging B.J.

"Late night"

"Well yes but I'll tell you later" She said looking up and smiling Nick.

After of a couple of songs the boys were given a fifteen minute break. Nick quickly came up to Jersey and planted a huge kiss on her lips.

"What was that for" Jersey said smiling

Nick looked at her "What I can't kiss my girl anytime I want to"

The boys and B.J., turned shocked.

Brian spoke for all of them " You two are an item, now"

Jersey smiled at her brother and shook her head yes.

"About damn time" A.J. spoke up.

After a couple, of minutes the stage manager Lonnie, called the boys back up on stage. On their way up Kevin stopped and turned to Jersey. " Jersey aren't you going to rehearse sometime today"

"What for" Jersey asked

"You don't know" Kevin teased her

"Nooo, what's going on"

Brian finished Kevin's sentence "Well in short, JIVE wants you to open for us tonight to and if they like you, they may give a contract."

Jersey's jaw dropped. "What, your serious, Brian you better not be joking"

They guys started to laugh "Don't worry it's the truth"

Jersey turned to B.J. and they hugged and yelled.

**Jersey's Rehearsal**

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

"Okay Jersey, this is your band, we listened to your tape and we loved all the songs so we spent all night learning them" Lonnie the stage manager then introduced her to all of them.

"Okay this Jeremy on keyboards, Alec on bass, Jacob on guitar, Richard on drums, and when needed Joey on sax and any other instrument we need." Jersey shook hands with all of them.

"Nice to meet you all, I'm sure we'll get well aquatinted in the coming months" She said smiling.

Lonnie walked down to the arena seats and yelled to Jersey " Okay Jersey take "My Guy" from the top and I'll stop you if needed"

Jersey grabbed the mike and waited for her que. The music started and Jersey started to sing:

Baby boy you are so fine
How I want you to be mine
Thinkin bout you all the time
Every day and night
My emotions for you are so true
Yeah every time I'm c lose to you
My heart starts to undo

I think I'm fallin in love
So tell me baby what to do yeah yeah
My heart races
Each and every time
You look at me
What is it baby that you can't see

Baby I adore you
So come on babe I want you
The world deserves you and I

"Jersey, Jersey, let's start from where you left off and put some more feeling and emotions into your song, make me feel your words"

"Okay" Jersey started to sing again

Baby I adore you
So come on babe I want you
The world deserves you and I...
As the time passes by
I don't want no other guys

I think I'm falling for you
So tell em baby what to do
Ohhh yeahhhh
I'm waiting to let go of my control
Cause babbby I love youuu

My love grows for you everyday
My lips are just a kiss away
Boy I dream of youuuu
Babe I give my heart to you
In waaays that are so true

I think I'm falling in love with you
Tell me baby what to do
My heart races for you
yyyeeeeaaahhh Cause baaabbbbbyyyy I looove
Youuuuuu
Cause baby I love youuu

The music ended and Jersey opened her eyes to see about 25 people watching her amazed at how she opened up. (Authors Note: Jersey sounds like Christina Aguleria, Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey, and Kelly Clarkson:)

"That was amazing" Kevin said walking onto the stage

"Thank you I really didn't like the way my voice sounded" Jersey said smiling at Nick

CHAPTER TWENTY- NINE

Lonnie came up on stage and rushed the boys away because Jersey had to do learn a 5 song set.

*Show time*

"Breath Jers breath" Jersey whispered to herself as she sat in the make-up chair, waiting to be made into a star.

The door opened and a UPS guy said"Delivery for Mrs. Jersey Littrell"

"That's me" Jersey said turning around to see a dozen candy cane roses.

"Wow,there so beautiful," Jersey said smelling them.

She figured they were from Nick so she didn't open the card.

When she was finished and her her outfit she had on a glittery pair of frayed bleached jeans and a white shirt cut up all over,.

"Lets go Jersey" Lonie came in.

Jersey jumped from the seat and followed Lonnie to her spot on stage. She turned to him "Are you sure I'm ready, I mean .... what if I'm off tune or I miss a step"

Before Lonie could answer she heard the announcer come on " Are you ready" the crowd erupted, " I can't hear you" the crowd got even louder, believe it or not the arena started to shake. "That's more like it now give a warm welcome to the Southern Belle Jersey."

Jersey walked on stage and the crowd some how grew louder " Hey how ya feelin? the crowd erupted. " I said how ya feelin? the crowd yet again surprised Jersey and grew louder "That's much better" The lights went out and Jersey was in blackness waiting for the music to start. The familiar tune of "I think I'm in Love with you" blared through the speakers. The light blinked on her and she did her little dance routine before the song started. She finally started to sing and was surprised she didn't miss a step or beat, the whole show.

*****
Jersey walked off stage out of breath and tired. She stopped in front of the make -up designer and he wiped her off with a towel.

B.J. came running up to her " That was amazing the crowd loved you, and so did JIVE"

"What, I got the deal." Jersey, said breathing hard.

B.J. smiled at her " Well, the President of Jive wants to meet in you in person."

"WHAAT!, Omigod, Omigod, I can not believe this." Jersey said over excited.

*Later that night*

"I can not believe this, Nick. " It's finally happening"

"I know" Nick said hugging her tighter.

"Let's go celebrate" He said jumping up and grabbing Jersey's hand.

Jersey stood up " Now let's celebrate when I get the deal okay"

"Alright" Nick said kissing her.

Jersey glanced at the clock it read 3:30 " Omigod, I gotta get some sleep, she said walking over to the door. She opened it for Nick, and motioned for him to leave.

He followed orders and left with a quick kiss. Jersey climbed into her night clothes, and quickly fell asleep.

*The next day*

RING RING RING RING................................................................

"I'm coming" said a tired Jersey

"Hello" She whispered as she glanced at the clock 5:00am.

"Yes this your five o'clock wake up call" said a cheery voice
CHAPTER THIRTY

"Thank You" Jersey said waking up more.

"Jersey who was that" B.J. said coming out of her room.

Jersey turned to her " Oh a wake up call" Jersey proceeded to jump and the shower, and get ready for her 10:00am meeting with JIVE.

* At the Meeting*

" Agh... I'm so nervous" Jersey said to herself, while clutching her hands.

"Mrs. Littrell" A young secretary came into the room

Jersey looked up "That's me" She stood up and proceeded into the room.

Jersey was surprised their was a huge large table, and about twenty execs. She only expecting a few. She was the first to speak.

"Hello, what a pleasure it is to be here."

"Please take a seat Mrs. Littrell"

Taking a seat Jersey spoke " Oh, call me Jersey" She said smiling.

"So Mrs. Litt... Jersey, what do you expect to happen today" They turned to her with straight faces and waited for her answer.

"Well..." Jersey began to stammer. " I...I... want to be a singer, an entertainer, and I'm hoping you'll help me start my dream."

They didn't say anything for what seemed like five minutes.

"Well do you have any talent." The top guy asked
Jersey smiled and laughed " I hope so"

They all laughed at her. She smiled and shifted in her seat.

"Well Mrs. Littrell, sing for us." They again looked at her with anticipation.

"I don't have a tape"

"Acapella Jersey."

"Oh okay..." She thought of a song that would accent her talent, and show off her range. She started.

" No I can't forget this evening
Nor your face when you were leaving
But I guess this is how the story goesss.
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrows showwwsss.
Yes it showwss
No I can't face tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let
you go and now it's only fair that
I should let you knoww
What you should knowwww

I can't livvveee,
if livin is without you
I can't livveee
I can't give anymorrreee
Can't liiiiiivvvvvvvvvvve
If livin is without you
I can't livvvee
I can't give anymooorrreee

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that just the way the storrry goesss
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shooows
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

Yes it shows
ohohohohohohohoh
I can't liiiiiiiive , if livin is without you
Can't livvvvveeee
I can't give anymooore
Can't livvvvvve
If living is without you
I can't livvve
/ can't give anymorrrrreee
ohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohohh nononono
Can't livvve
If livin is without you
I can't live
I can't mooorrre
Can't live
ahahahahahahahohahoh no no noooo nnnoooo
(authour's note : Imagine Kelly on American Idol)

Jersey came to an end, and was very surprised when she got a round of applause

"Thank you" she smiled.

"Very good, Mrs. Littrell, very very good"

She took her seat again and couldn't stop from smiling.

"Well Jersey, could you please step outside as we talk amongst ourselves."

Jersey stood and walked outside. For what seemed like an eternity. The secretary
came and got her again. Jersey followed her once again, and walked into the board room.

"Welcome back Ms. Littrell"

"Thank you" She waited anxiously for the answer.
They paused for what seemed like an eternity, and the President finally spoke.

"Well, Ms. Littrell if you have an amazing talent" He paused again

Jersey could feel the tears welling up in her eyes as she waited for rejection.

"... Your signed." He said smiling

Jersey's mouth opened mouth wide, for the first time in her life she was speechless. She started to smile and cry at the same time.

" Thank you...so much." She said putting her hand up to her mouth.

She had been rejected so many times, she just wasn't ready for acceptance.

" Please sit down, so we can discuss."

Jersey of course accepted his offer and sat down. She waited for him to speak again.

" First we need to get you a manger, you have a gift but that shouldn't take long, second you are very beautiful, so getting you a makeover is out of the question, thirdly we can't get you a contract until you have a lawyer, so tomorrow I expect your call."

Jersey was still shocked, so all she could say was thank you. She stood up and proceeded to leave. Ohmigod was all she could think. I did it she told herself.

*20 minutes Later*

Jersey arrived back at the hotel just in time she thought to meet the boys, before they left for a press interview.. She couldn't wait to tell the guys and B.J. She popped the key into the door and saw a familiar face sitting on the couch. Her mouth dropped.

"Hello beautiful" The figure said

Jersey voice was shaking" What...um.... what are you doing here." she managed to get out.

Chapter Thirty- Two

Jose got up from the couch and started to walk towards her. " I came to see you gorgeous, you didn't think it was over did you.... I told you I'd be back."

As he came forward Jersey started to back up to reach the door, she would try to grab the doorknob backwards, and open the door.

"I thought I told you Jose... it's... it's over."

"Oh I know what you said... but I'm not here for that... I thought I told you stay away from Nick Carter." He said finally reaching her he was standing right in front of her.

Jersey didn't know what to say, so she lied to get him out of there." I did, I don't see him anymore." She starred at him for his response.

"DON'T lie to me Jersey." She jumped as he yelled at her. " I know that you two have been going out... you see I decided to stay here after that little confrontation we had and I've been staying in this hotel, and I've seen everything. EVERYTHING" He yelled at her again.

When she looked at him, she could feel her body shake. She looked around for something to hit him with if he attacked her.

" LOOK AT ME" He screamed, she jumped and her gaze fell back on him.

"Nick" Jersey said to through Jose's gaze off of her so she could run. He turned from her and she took off running.

" Oh no you don't" He said running after her and grabbing her hair from behind. He pushed her back into the door and he held his hand over her mouth. She started to breathe heavily and tears fell down her face,

"Augh... don't cry beautiful" He said licking the tears off her face. She turned her head and he forced her head back with his hand. He removed his hand from her mouth and she started to talk to him. " Please Jose don't do this...please, you don't want to hurt me... I know that you still love me... I can see it in your eyes." Jersey decided to try and flatter him. " Why are you doing this if you don't want me to see Nick, then I'll stop and me and you can go out again... I still love you so much...I don't....."

"SHUT UP" He put his hand on her mouth again" SHUT UP JERSEY" he slammed her head into the door. A knock came at the door.

"Room Service... Mrs. Littrell.

Jersey looked at Jose, she managed to get her leg up and she kicked him as hard as she could. He stumbled back and Jersey managed to turn around and get the door open. She ran out and stood behind the room service guy. " Thank you " she whispered in his ear " Please stay here with me for a minute" Jose stumbled out of the door. He went up to Jersey, and the service guy stood in front of her. " See ya later beautiful, I will be back." He walked down the hall, and into the elevator.

"Are you okay Mrs." The waiter proceeded to talk to her.

"Yes...yes...I'm fine just an unexpected visitor." Jersey thanked him again and went back into her room.

"Ouch" She winced as she cleaned a scratch on her face from Jose, she put her hand up to her head " Ouch" there was blood on her hand when she pulled it back. She couldn't remember him hitting her head that hard. She jumped in the shower to wash the blood out and to be fresh when B.J. came back. She definitely wasn't telling anyone about this.

* * *

" Jersey I'm home." B.J. yelled through the hotel room. " Hurry up were leaving tonight for Kentucky."

"Coming" Jersey replied walking out of the bathroom. " I thought we weren't leaving until tomorrow."

"We weren't but a bad storm is coming and we have to leave tonight or not at all, so pack your stuff, the bus is leaving in 45 minutes." B.J. walked into her room to pack her stuff.

Chapter Thirty- Three

Jersey limped to the couch her body was aching all over, from being thrown into the door. She wasn't sure whether to tell B.J. or not.

* * *

"SURPRISE" Everyone yelled as Jersey walked into the bus.

Nick walked over to her and kissed her on the cheek. "We heard about your good news."

"What, how did you find out." Jersey had completely forgot about the deal. Nick hugged her and she winced again.

"What's wrong"

"What.... nothing.... nothing... I fell earlier.... it was my fault."

"Okay" Nick smiled but knew she was holding something back.

"Congratulations Sis." Brian said hugging her tightly making her want to cry.

"Yeah to Jersey." Howie said raising his beer. "Our next superstar."

Jersey smiled " Yeah right"

The driver yelled from the back. " We're leaving in a few minutes... so anything you forgot oh well."

"Well I'm real tired, so I'm gonna head to bed." Jersey said faking a yawn.

"What the party is just starting." Kevin yelled.

"Well with all the excitement I'm beat." She said stretching her arms out. She walked into the bathroom and as she changed her clothes, she noticed big bruises on her back . "God, why did I let him do this to me again."

***
Jersey couldn't sleep at all that night so she got up around 1:30am and went to the kitchen - living area of the bus. She found A.J. on the couch reading.

"Hey" He said to her

"Hey, I couldn't sleep." She said sitting down on the couch.

"Me either.... but I find that a good book usually puts me right out." He said laughing.

Jersey didn't get the joke and didn't laugh back.

"What's wrong... beautiful." He touched her face as he put his book down.

"It's finally happening A.J.... everything I've ever dreamed is coming true, I have a decent boyfriend, a musical deal." She started to cry.

He wiped her tears away. "Oh A.J." she started to weep on his shoulder.

"I have to tell you something, and you cannot tell anyone... anyone." She knew out of everyone she could trust him the most.

"I got an unexpected vistor...today," Her voice cracked with the tears.

"Who."

"Jose........." Her voice trailed off as more and more tears fell down endlessly/

"What did he want" A.J. said handing her a tissue.

"This is what you can't tell" She paused again. " He was in my room when I came back from JIVE, and he confronted me about Nick and I got scared so... I....I went to run away but he grabbed me by my hair." Her voice cracked again. " and he slammed me into the door, and he tried to kiss me but his hand was over my mouth, and ... when he pulled away....... I started to talk to him and he yelled and told me to shut up." She stopped again. " Then he slammed my head into the door with his mouth over my hand." The last word was barley audible by her.

Chapter Thirty - Four

A.J. was stunned for a minute." That's why you cried when Brian hugged you, Jersey we gotta tell someone, you gotta call the police.

"NO...NO he will get even madder and come after me, please it's okay I have it under control." She said touching his arm. "Please A.J. don't tell anyone, please it will blow over... I know him." Jersey stared at him.

He looked in her eyes and just couldn't resist her, blue eyes. "Fine, Jersey.. but if I ever see him.. I will kill him."

Jersey smiled and stood up." Well I'm going back to bed, we don't want to fall asleep like we did before." She laughed, and walked back into the bunks. She decided to get into Nick's instead of hers; she needed to be held.

"Jersey" Nick whispered.

"Yeah...I can't sleep... can I sleep with you tonight." She whispered back.

"WHAT" Nick jumped up.

"No Nick not sleep sleep with you, I just need to be held." She laughed at his disappointed face.

"Oh okay c'mon.... beautiful."

Jersey thought to herself. " I wish everyone would stop calling me that."

She climbed into bed and made sure to avoid a position that would hurt her back.

****
Jersey was awakened by Nick shaking her to tell her that they were at the hotel.

"God what time is it" A groggily Jersey said

Nick smiled " 8:30, I wouldn't of woke you but we're here, and I thought you'd want to rush right over to Sicily's.

Jersey looked at him for a minute comprehending what he said. "Where are we."

"Kentucky Jersey, remember." He sat down on the bed and touched her face.

Jersey thought back to yesterday, " Oh yeah... I must of forgotten" Jersey moved Nick's hand away from her face, kissed him and proceeded to get up. She was even sorer then yesterday. Now she could barely walk without wanting to scream.

"Everybody's already in so it's just me and you, that have to brave this crowd."

"What crowd" Jersey looked outside, there's was only twenty people outside.

****
"Here you go Mrs. room 541"

Jersey took the key and proceeded to her room. This time she wasn't sharing a room with B.J. She threw her bags down and decided to jump in the shower to start the day. She decided to bum the day and put on her new J.Lo jumpsuit, and to twist her hair into a ponytail. After she was done she called Sicily and they decided to meet at Pompo's Jersey's favorite Pizza shop.

While Jersey was on her way out she stopped into Brian, Nick, and A.J.'s rooms.

*Brian's.*

"Hey bro, you want me to bring you back anything, I'm going to Pompo's, to meet Sicily."

'No, I'm cool."

"Okay" Jersey yelled back.

"Jers, come her a minute." She walked into the room, and sat on the couch.

Brian came out of the little kitchen area. " I want to talk you."

Jersey turned to him." If it's about Nick, I've already got that talk from Kevin."

Brian walked over to her and sat next to her. " No, I am so proud of you. Jersey."

Chapter Thirty- Five

Jersey looked up at him and smiled. "You're such a dork Brian"

"I'm trying to be serious Jersey, I never knew you could sing like that."

"Well, either did I .... in the office I unleashed a part of me I didn't know I had."

"Jersey that's just not what I wanted to discuss with you." He grabbed her hand.

"What."

"I fully understand if you don't want to go with me... but I'm going to... dad's grave, and want you to come with me." He waited for her reaction.

Jersey looked at him for a second. " No... No... I'm not going to pay my respect to a man of so much hatred, how could you even ask me that Brian."

"I thought you would wanna go, I mean he was our father... Jersey."

" You don't know what it was like Brian living in fear every day... you left me remember." She stood up and started to leave. Brian stood up with her and yelled back at her.

"Are you going to throw that up in my face every time I talk about dad."

"Yes, I am Brian. . . Everyday I would plead and pray to God for something to happen to him, so he would leave me alone and prayed for hours one night, for somebody anybody to come get me, out of that hell, you barely even called Brian, your no better then mom or Callum. NO better." She didn't even wait for his reaction, she ran out of his room.

*Nick's*

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNCOK

no answer.

*A.J.'s*
"Hey boy." Jersey said smiling as she walked into his room.

"Hey beautiful." He said walking up to her and kissing her on the cheek.

"I came to see if you wanted anything, I'm going to Pompo's for some pizza."

"Nah, I just ate."

Jersey started to leave. "Wait Jersey"

"What." She turned to him.

"Never mind." He couldn't bare to tell her he had told his mom what happened.

****
Jersey walked into Pompo's with a refreshed mind, ready to see her best friend.
She spotted Sicily, and ran into the restaurant.

"Sic" She yelled running to give her a hug.

"Jers, oh I missed you so much." She hugged her tightly and for the first time the whole day, Jersey felt the pains of her "accident". She winced and let go of Sicily.
They sat down and talked for hours and hours. They decided to meet again that night at an under twenty one club " Mandyie's". After they both left Jersey decided there was something she had to do.

* * *

Harold Littrell
1957- 2001
Beloved Father, and Husband

Jersey laughed at the thought. "What was so beloved about him." She was there for a good fifteen minutes before she said anything. For some strange reason she started to cry. As the tears fell, she got angrier and angrier.

"Augh, I promised myself that I would never let anyone hurt me again, a lot of good that did. If your watching this, from hell don't think I'm crying because I miss you or because I'm sad about your death, because I'm not, I'm happy your dead, I'm...

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relieved a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, a fist off my face." Jersey started to cry even harder. she got up and started to walk away but was so enraged that she turned back to the grave site.

"BASTARD, how DARE you make me cry again, never again will you EVER hurt me or anyone else again, You will never know how it felt to come home and be afraid to even breathe. NEVER will you understand how it feels to have the one person in this world, that's supposed to care the most for you, torture and beat you. I hate you Harold with every fiber of my being." Jersey went down to her knees, and sobbed. She got up to leave, and yelled one last thing " I hope you rot in hell for all eternity, and then maybe you'll know how it feels." As she turned around a familiar face was standing behind her.

"I thought, you weren't coming up here." Brian stayed where he was.

"I wasn't, until I talked to Sicily how long have you been here." She wiped the tears off her face.

"Long enough to hear how you really felt."

Jersey did a fake laugh " What did you expect me to say Brian... how much I miss him, how much my life is empty without him. Well wake up Brian I HATE HIM, If you want to go on believing he's this perfect father, then do it... but I'm NOT. I know what he was like you have NO idea, you left me remember. REMEMBER." Jersey started to walk away and Brian grabbed her arm. "No Brian... I'm done." She jerked her arm free and walked away. She left Brian standing there with his head down.

"How dare him" She thought to herself as she got into her rent - a- car. When Jersey got into the car she sat there thinking, about what she said and began to cry.

"God, Brian I didn't mean to take it out on you." She put her head down to the steering wheel and began to sob. After a few minutes she picked her head up, wiped her tears and drove away. She drove for hours and hours just driving around to her old school, and places like that.
. . . At about seven she decided to head back to the hotel and get ready to meet Sicily at Mandyie's. She entered her hotel and just walked by everyone, to get up to her room. When she got in she noticed a big bouquet of red and white roses. "Nick" she thought " I'll read the card later." She went into her bedroom and jumped into the shower. She stayed in for what felt like hours, and finally got out. Jersey decided that she would ask the boys and B.J. if they wanted to come with her tonight. She decided on a short revealing black strapless dress, she did her hair in tight curls and her make up was flawless (as usual). At about 8:26 she was ready, she didn't have to meet Sicily until 9:30.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

"Coming" Jersey heard Nick yell from inside. He opened the door in a towel of all us.

Jersey smiled "What would you have done if I was a crazed fan or something." She invited herself into his room.

"I don't know I was hoping it was you, I haven't seen you all day." He kissed her very passionately.

Jersey broke the kiss "I'm glad your not dressed I..." Nick cut her off.

"Really." He smiled at her and put his hand on her shoulder. Jersey took it off.

"Yeah, I was hoping you would go to MANDYIE'S with me tonight, I have to meet Sicily."

"I was wondering why you were so dressed up, don't get me wrong I love you in that dress" he looked her up and down.

"Up here" She directed his head to hers.

"Yeah, I would love to go with you, let me call the guy's and see if they want to go." He called Kevin, Howie, and A.J., they all had plans the last person Jersey wanted to see right now was Brian; luckily he wasn't in his room.

"Let me go get dressed and I'll be out in a minute, unless you want to watch."

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"No I don't, hurry up" she said kissing him again.

Sure enough in 5 minutes, Nick was walking out of the bathroom. He was wearing khaki pants, and a button up shirt. Jersey had only seem him dressed up on stage, she totally wanted him right then and there.

"Let's go." Jersey said standing up.

They left the room and proceeded down the hallway. Jersey was running a little late, it was now 9:03 and it took 25 minutes to get there.

* * * * * * *

"It's really crowded here." Jersey said stepping out of the car.

"I know, but we shouldn't have to wait." He took her hand and they walked to the red rope.

Nick walked up to the bouncer, and they had a little conversation. Nick came back to the line and grabbed Jersey's hand. They were taken to the VIP section, and Jersey looked around for Sicily, she didn't see her. Jersey looked down at her watch 9:45. "Where is she" She thought to herself.

"I'm going to look for her." She stood up. Nick watched her walk away. "Umm" he thought to himself.

Jersey walked around the club, and Sicily definitely wasn't there. Jersey got an awful feeling in her stomach. Then some guy grabbed her and began to dance with her. "No I... I don't feel like dancing" She pulled away and walked back to Nick.
"Come on baby." She heard the guy yell.

"Nick I wanna leave, I have an awful feeling and I just wanna stop by her house."

"Yeah sure."

They walked out of the club, and started towards Sicily's house.

Jersey was driving and just had the awful est feeling. "Nick, I just have this feeling something's wrong.. I don't know what it is."

Nick turned to her. " I'm sure it's okay Jers, she's probably just forgot or something."

"I hope, but it's not like her." Jersey pulled the car onto Ostego Ave, and was horrified by what she saw, when she got close to Sicily's house there was police cars, and an ambulance in her drive way.

"Ohmigod Nick" Jersey parked the car on the curb, and jumped out of the car.

Jersey started to run to Sicily's house, but she was stopped by an officer. "What happened." Jersey was in tears by now. "What happened" Nick caught up with her and was now standing next to her.

"Mam, you need to step behind the yellow line, please."

"No, please tell me what happened to Sicily, please she's my sister....... please tell me." Jersey gave the officer a pleading look, Sicily was the closest thing she had to a sister.

"Oh, well I'm sorry to tell you that we received a call about 9:00pm, stating that there had been numerous gunshots heard inside the residence." He paused " When we got here, we found a young women inside she had been shot."

Jersey stood there for a moment. " She's okay though, right, please tell me she's all right." The tears fell from her face in puddles.

The officer started again "I'm sorry, she had massive trauma the EMS crew took her to the University hospital, but it looked hopeless."

Jersey looked at him, and started to run back to the car.

"Jersey wait" Nick yelled running after her.

They hopped into the car and were on their way to the hospital.

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CHAPTER THIRTY -EIGHT

Jersey ran down the hall to the nurse's station. "I'm looking for Sicily Montgomery, she was brought in earlier with a gunshot wound."

"Miss, you're gonna have to sit down and wait."

"No, you don't understand, I'm her sister I need to see her."

"I'll get a doctor." The nurse went to find the doctor

Jersey turned to Nick and put her head into his chest and cried, he rubbed her back. After a few minutes, the doctor returned.

"Miss Montgomery"

"No, it's Littrell, but I'm her sister." He walked Jersey and Nick over to the chairs.

"Sicily was brought in with massive bodily trauma, she was unresponsive and was put onto a ventilator to help her breath, she is very critical she received a wound to the heart, and is in surgery right now. A ventricle was severed and you understand that this surgery is very tricky, and the survival rate with this type of injury is 35%."

Jersey looked up at him."Don't tell me about survival rate's, she's a fighter she can make it through this I know she can."

The doctor gave a sympathetic smile and walked away.

Jersey turned to Nick " Nick, I know she's a fighter, she can't die on me she's my, God Nick she can't die." Jersey leaned into him and put her head to his chest. After about twenty minutes, the doctor came back out.

"Miss Littrell."

"Yes" Jersey turned to him.

"Sicily is out of surgery, and the surgeons were able to do what they could, but the injury was far worse then they imagined." He stopped.

"She died." Jersey gave him a desperate look.

"No, but it looks very slim, I'm so sorry she's up in ICU if you want to go see her."

Jersey stood up. "Yeah, I want to go see her."

Jersey and Nick were unprepared for what they saw when they walked in. Jersey broke down when she saw all the tubes in Sicily, she walked over to her and sat down.

"Sic it's me Jers, I'm so sorry I should of met you at your house, and I should of protected you, I'm so so sorry." Jersey laid her head on Sicily's hand and cried. Nick came up to her and put his hand on her shoulder. Jersey put her hand on Nick's.

'God, Nick I can't stand seeing her like this, could I have a few minutes alone."

"Sure, Jersey." Nick walked out of the room.

Jersey looked at her and just cried. "Sicily, I know you can pull through this, please you gotta do it for me please, don't...leave.......me." Jersey broke down and started sobbing and sobbing. After a few minutes Jersey looked up at her "Wake up Sicily, open your eyes, please wake up." Jersey prayed for a miracle. She stood up and decided to go to the chapel. "I'll be back"

Jersey walked down the hallway and forced herself into the chapel. She walked to the front and lit a candle. "God, I know that I haven't prayed to you in a long time, but you gotta save her lord, please you have to save her." Jersey got up and went back to the room to find Mrs. Montgomery.

"Jersey" She got up and gave her a hug. "I don't know what I'll do if I lose her."

That made Jersey cry even harder. Mrs. Montgomery wiped her tears away.

"Do you know what happened they wouldn't tell me anything, just that there was in accident."

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"Well, I was supposed to meet Sicily at MANDYIE'S and she never showed so I got worried and I had my boy-friend Nick drive over to her house with me, when I got there they told me that she had been shot. So I got over here as fast as I could and I told the doctor's that I was her sister and they told me that she had an injury to her heart ventricle, and that's where we are now." Jersey wiped away her tears.

The next few hours were left crying and up to fate whether Sicily died or a miracle happened.

* * * * *

"Jersey honey, you've been here all night please go home and sleep I'll call if there's a change." Mrs. Montgomery smiled.

Jersey knew that there was nothing she could do so against her will she decided Mrs. Montgomery was right.

* * *

The car ride back to the hotel was silent. After about a twenty five minute drive, they finally pulled up to the hotel. Jersey used the front entrance as Nick went to the back, fans were still there. Jersey gave Nick a kiss good night and went into her room, to find the roses still there with a card to be opened. She walked over to the roses and picked up the card.

Surprise Beautiful!!!

Jersey stared at the card and started to get memory glances of Jose calling her beautiful. She took her hand and threw the flowers and vase across the room. Water and glass went everywhere. She dropped to her knees and started sobbing. After a couple minutes she got up and decided to keep the card and roses a secret until she could be sure who they were from. (Authors note: I am going some where with this, stay tuned) Jersey cleaned up the mess and got into the shower, she couldn't really sleep so she stayed up the rest of the night just thinking about things.

****The next morning***

"Oh I must off drifted off" Jersey said to herself waking up.

She hurried up and got dressed so she could go straight to the hospital.

**

"Yes, could you leave a message to Nick Carter's room please tell him that I will be back in time for the performance tonight."

"Yes, Miss" The clerk answered.

The drive took the usual thirty minutes and she was surprise to see a guard standing outside Sicily's room once she got there.

"Name." The guard asked.

"Umm.. Jersey Litrell"

"Oh okay, go in"

She opened the door and sadness immediately overcame her. Mrs. Montgomery wasn't in the room so Jersey walked over to Sicily's still body. Jersey sat down and picked up Sicily's hand.

"Sic it's me.......Jers....." She started to cry. "Ummm.... I need you wake up Sicily I need you tell me who did this to you......Please just wake up Sicily tell me who did this." Jersey was silent and got up into Sicily's ear. "I know who did this and I'm so sorry that I brought him into your life Sic.....I'm so sorry." Jersey broke down and placed her head on Sicily's bed side. After a couple of minutes Mrs. Montgomery came back and Jersey walked into the waiting area. Jersey was out there for what seemed like an eternity until a nurse came out and got her.

"Mrs. Montgomery would like you to come in"

Jersey walked into the room where a surprise awaited her. "Sicily..........ohmigod your awake."

"Yes, Sicily she woke about five minutes ago."
CHAPTER FORTY

** * Still at the hospital 2 hrs later*********

Sicily wasn't allowed to communicate in any way until she was excavated from her breathing machine, even then she could barely talk. Jersey asked Mrs. Montgomery if she could have a moment alone. Jersey walked over to the bed and sat down in the chair.

"Hey" Sicily barely whispered

"Sicily, I know you just woke up a couple of hours ago but I need you tell me what happened and who did this to you." Jersey grabbed her hand

Sicily turned her head away. "I can't right now Jers, I'm really tired"

"Sicily, I know you don't want to talk or anything, but I want you to write down or even whisper to me who did this.........please Sicily I need this." Jersey leaned into her.

Sicily pulled Jersey into her and whispered to her "Jose" Jersey let out a big sigh and looked down at Sicily.

"Oh God.......no...augh I am so sorry I'm sorry Sicily..." Even though Jersey suspected him she still couldn't bring herself to believe what she heard.

Sicily pointed to the pen and paper and began to write when Jersey handed it to her. After a couple of minutes Sicily handed her the paper. Tears started down Jersey's face as she read the note.

I was getting ready for the club and I heard a knock at the door, I answered it and it was him he asked if I had seen you and I told him no he didn't believe me so he pulled out a gun I screamed and told me to tell him the truth I still said no and he just shot and I fell to the ground and the next thing I remember is waking up here...

"I'm so sorry, it shoulda been me he was looking for me." Her tears weren't falling as quickly.

Sicily put her hand into Jersey's and fell to sleep. Jersey had to get out of there so she ran out of the room and just drove around when she wound up at her old house. When Jersey realized where she was she pondered the thought of going in or not. Well in about five minutes she was opening the door into a nightmare even she couldn't imagine. She stood in the opening for a minute before going upstairs. She was amazed everything was there except for police tape, she opened the door to her old bedroom and everything was there that she didn't take with her. Jersey sat on the bed and a flashback came to her.

'Where have you been" Her father stormed into the room
"Nowhere, I've...been here the whole time" He picked her up by her arms from the bed.
He started to shake her "Don't lie to me you little bitch." He slapped her across the face.
"Where have you been"
"I swear I've been here."
He slammed her down on the bed. "You were with that boyfriend of yours wasn't you..........WASN"T YOU" He slapped her again. "You better not come out of this room again tonight......or you'll get worse."

Jersey came back to reality, she remembered every beating like it was yesterday. Jersey got up and walked back down stairs into her father's bedroom. She didn't know what to expect in here because she rarely stepped foot in the room. She opened the door to find nothing.....so she walked down to the family room. She noticed police tape so this must of been where the attack took place. A flashback of her mother leaving entered her mind.

"No mommy, please don't leave" Jersey was hanging onto her arms. Brian was standing in the hallway and her father was next to him.

"Get off of me" She flung Jersey off her arm. She landed with a thudd on the floor. Brian ran over and helped her up.

"Please mommy, please don't leave us." Jersey pleaded again. Her mother walked out the door with her twin sister Callum, and that was it.

When Jersey came back she noticed she was standing by a family picture on the wall. She picked it up and studied it. "Where did it go wrong, we were such a happy family." She thought, almost instantly she threw the picture against the wall. Shattering the frame and all. Her eyes started welling up with tears so she started to walk out but something pulled her back. She stood still and

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flashbacks of that night came into her mind, and within a minute it all started coming back to her. She started seeing the actions of that night unfold before her.

She saw herself coming in the door from school, putting her books on the table and going up to her room. She then came back downstairs and cooked her father his dinner and did her homework. About two hours she heard her father's car pull into the driveway. Jersey's stomach curled the thought of her father made her sick. The "real" Jersey walked into the kitchen were her memory took her.

"Jersey.........Jersey where are you" She heard her father yell

"In here dad....just finishing my homework, dinners on the table." She saw her father walk in and give her a kiss on the cheek. You see he was a sweet man when he wasn't drunk.

"Your not eating Jersey"

"I'll get something later, I have a paper due tomorrow." Jersey's voice was shaking.

A couple of minutes went by until her father broke it. "What is this slop..... YOU KNOW I DON"T LIKE MY SPAGHETTI MIXED" He threw the plate across the table. Jersey jumped by his voice, he got up and walked over to her. He got down in her face. "What poor baby are you scared of me or something." Jersey knew the best thing was to stay silent. "ANSWER ME" She jumped again. He picekd her up by her arms and literally dragged her into the family room.

"NO STOP............AGH AGGGGH HELP ME NO YOUR HURTING ME." Her father threw her into the wall Jersey could feel the blood drip off her face onto her shirt. He came at her again but this time she fought back but a lot of good that did he eventually won and the next thing she remembered she was waking up on the family room floor.

The "real" Jersey was in disbelief in what she was seeing, she saw the"memory Jersey" get up and walk over to her father who was sleeping in his chair.

"She felt under his nose to see if he was still breathing and to her heartbreak he was. She took a deep breath and walked into her father's "trophy" room and came back with a pistol in her hand.

The "real" Jersey started screaming out and ran after the imaginitive Jersey. "What are you doing with that .....no.........no it's not true. She watched the "fake" Jersey go up to the chair and put the gun to his head. Harold started to stirr awake so she just pulled the trigger. She slipped back into her state:

The gun immediately dropped from her hand and she just stared at the body of her dead father. "What have I done........ What have I done" she knew that she was going to be charged with the murder so she ran to the kitchen and cleaned the gun off she then went back to the room and placed the gun in his hand to make it look like a suicide. She then ran back to the kitchen and grabbed a piece a paper and forged her father's suicide note. She then saw herself get dizzy and pass out again.

Jersey came back to reality. "Oh.........my...............God..... no no no there's no way no." Jersey remembered the day she woke up in the hospital she was shocked to learn of her father's sucide, why would she do that if she faked it. She ran out of the house into her car and ran to tell somebody anbody. After about twenty minutes she wound up at the hotel and in front of A.J.'s room. she knew she could trust him.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

"Just a minute" A.J. yelled from inside, he unlocked the door and didn't expect a sobbing Jersey there. "What's wrong"

"Can I come in"

"Yeah sure" He moved out of the doorway to allow her in. "What's bothering you"

"Well let me start from the beginning.....um last night I was supposed to meet my friend Sicily at MANDYIE'S she never showed so I got scared...... and I had Nick, drive me to her house.......well turns out she had been attacked and was taken to the hospital, of course we went over threre. She's out of the woods now but...we left there at about 1:00 and when I got back here there was bouquet of candy candy cane roses so I opened the card and it said "Surprise Beautiful", well I ended throwing the roses across the room and this morning I went back to the hospital and Sicily told me that Jose had shot her looking for me....of course I feel tremendous guilt about it all.....but wait that's not the end of it...... I left the hospital and drove around I wound up at my old house I shouldn't of even gotten

CHAPTER FORTY- TWO

out of the car.... I don't know why I did." She took a pause and looked at him. "Well stupid me went in and I explored and, I started having flashbacks of being abused and my mother leaving. Well I got my memory back as to what happened that night......and..........and uh." She stopped.

"That's horrible Jersey, so what happened."

"That's the hard part............." She told him the whole story up to the part where she wakes up. "...........So I got up and I went over to his chair to see if he was still breathing he was.......so..." She trailed off as she started to cry. "....so.....um I went into his "trophy"room and I brought back a pistol" She took a couple of deep breaths.

"No, Jers your not saying you killed your father are you?"

"I took the gun over to him and I put it to his head.......augh...... I froze I couldn't do it but when he started to wake up.......I.....I....just pulled the trigger." She whispered the last couple of words. "I killed him" She was crying harder now. "That's not the worst part A.J., I took the gun and I cleaned it and I wrote a fake note..... I went back to the family room and I set up the room to make it look like he killed himself." Tears were streaming down her face, and he just looked at her dumbfounded. "I killed him, A.j. I killed him"

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