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Poems and Stories

Lonely

Lonely the hand one holds,
Never ever to go.
Lonely the life one lives,
When all I ever did was give.
Lonely the taste one tastes,
When all that time wasn't a waste.
Lonely the heart one touch,
When all i ever did was love you too much.
Lonely the eyes one sees,
When I always thought it would be.
Lonely the sun that hangs in the sky,
Whenever I see you I want to cry.
Lonely the moon on a still dark night,
Why am i always filled with fright?
Lonely a child without it's mom,
Why do you have to be so gone?
Lonely will I always be,
Till it's you that I see.

The Rules of The Game

The rules of the game,
is to not let your heart get played.
The rules of the game,
is to always get your way.
The rules of the game,
is to be there your every beckon call.
The rules of the game,
is to be ther for you, when you're not there at all.
The rules of the game,
is to lay in your bed.
The rules of the game,
is to give you some head.
The rules of the game,
is to not break a single one.
The rules of the game,
is if you don't follow you are gone!

Stupid Mess

I sit here wondering why you went away
then I think all you wanted was some play.
You never cared about my feelings
at least you were getting some sexual healing.
I didn't know what to do about
when ever night you made me shout.
i don't know why i got into this mess
when all you wanted was some hard core sex.
When I gave it to you every freaking night
because you thought you had the right.
Well I admit it was pretty good
when you could get it when you thought you could.
I miss you in every way
even how you played.
But I can find better
who will give me the pleasures that matter.
Not too much sex
but enough that'll make me scream yes.
Yes I am a freakie girl
but you'll never see my freakie world.

Blind Dates

Blind dates suck
you never know who it'll be
so far all of my luck
they're uglier than me.
Ain't that some shit
that there is such a thing
sometimes it makes me sick
maybe i will have just one fling.
But not with anyone i've seen so far
maybe i'll just give up
maybe i'll ride in my car
till I get the thumbs up.

You Dont Understand

Why can't you understand
how i feel so deeply for him
just five him some time
he'll show you it's real.
I love him with all my heart
honestly I do
why must you keep us apart
can't you see it's you making me blue.
I respect your opinions
but please let me be
why can't your offer start ending
and just let him be with me.
Can't you see he still loves me
can't you see it in his eyes
how this is supposed to be
that it's me he wants istead of passing by.
Mother you just don't know
know how I feel
maybe I should just show
how this can be real.
But i've tried and i've tried
to show you my heart
but you make me cry and cry
because we are so apart.
You probaby don't like what i'm saying
but it's right to me
you probably think i'm playing
when I say it's meant to be.

Nobody Knows

Nobody knows me
nobody cares
nobody can't even see
that i'm there.
When I am gone
nobody will know
why I was so alone
maybe I should show.
Show why i want to leave
why I can't stay
Why i need to be free
and just not play.
I wonder why I need to be free
is it because of you
or is it because of me
or is it because of the truth.
Do you really love me
do you really care
do you want this to be
or do you just want to stare.
I miss your every touch
I miss your smile
I miss you so much
why don't you come back for awhile.
Maybe you will stay
the next time you come back
or maybe you'll just play
because it's you I lack.

My heart is empty
b/c i don't have you
my heart is filled with pity
b/c i still need you.
what am i supposed to do every night we're apart
how am i to cope?
my pain is all in my heart
maybe i have way too much hope.
i wonder how you really feel
feel about you and i
i even wonder if its real
or is it all a lie.
i know i didn't do anything wrong
i know i haven't
maybe i was just too strong
but it's just a habit.
i'm sorry if i loved you so much
i just hoped it would be
i'm sorry i missed your touch
i just wanted you to love me.

Forgive me father I have sin
I have fallen deep within
Deep within his weary soul
Deep within in which i can not hold.
I have fallen deep in his eyes
I have seen the soul inside
I have felt his addicting touch
I have learned to love him so much
I have learned about his honestly
I will love him endessly
So I gave him what was mine
Thinking I would be quit fine
So far so good i guess you can say
Nothing bad came my way
I'm still sitting here today
Writing about the time I got layed.

Email: Ashley

	Lonely
	Lonely the hand one holds, Never ever to go. Lonely the life one lives, When all I ever did was give. Lonely the taste one tastes, When all that time wasn't a waste. Lonely the heart one touch, When all i ever did was love you too much. Lonely the eyes one sees, When I always thought it would be. Lonely the sun that hangs in the sky, Whenever I see you I want to cry. Lonely the moon on a still dark night, Why am i always filled with fright? Lonely a child without it's mom, Why do you have to be so gone? Lonely will I always be, Till it's you that I see.

	The Rules of The Game
	The rules of the game, is to not let your heart get played. The rules of the game, is to always get your way. The rules of the game, is to be there your every beckon call. The rules of the game, is to be ther for you, when you're not there at all. The rules of the game, is to lay in your bed. The rules of the game, is to give you some head. The rules of the game, is to not break a single one. The rules of the game, is if you don't follow you are gone!
	Stupid Mess
	I sit here wondering why you went away then I think all you wanted was some play. You never cared about my feelings at least you were getting some sexual healing. I didn't know what to do about when ever night you made me shout. i don't know why i got into this mess when all you wanted was some hard core sex. When I gave it to you every freaking night because you thought you had the right. Well I admit it was pretty good when you could get it when you thought you could. I miss you in every way even how you played. But I can find better who will give me the pleasures that matter. Not too much sex but enough that'll make me scream yes. Yes I am a freakie girl but you'll never see my freakie world.
	Blind Dates
	Blind dates suck you never know who it'll be so far all of my luck they're uglier than me. Ain't that some shit that there is such a thing sometimes it makes me sick maybe i will have just one fling. But not with anyone i've seen so far maybe i'll just give up maybe i'll ride in my car till I get the thumbs up.
	You Dont Understand
	Why can't you understand how i feel so deeply for him just five him some time he'll show you it's real. I love him with all my heart honestly I do why must you keep us apart can't you see it's you making me blue. I respect your opinions but please let me be why can't your offer start ending and just let him be with me. Can't you see he still loves me can't you see it in his eyes how this is supposed to be that it's me he wants istead of passing by. Mother you just don't know know how I feel maybe I should just show how this can be real. But i've tried and i've tried to show you my heart but you make me cry and cry because we are so apart. You probaby don't like what i'm saying but it's right to me you probably think i'm playing when I say it's meant to be.
	Nobody Knows
	Nobody knows me nobody cares nobody can't even see that i'm there. When I am gone nobody will know why I was so alone maybe I should show. Show why i want to leave why I can't stay Why i need to be free and just not play. I wonder why I need to be free is it because of you or is it because of me or is it because of the truth. Do you really love me do you really care do you want this to be or do you just want to stare. I miss your every touch I miss your smile I miss you so much why don't you come back for awhile. Maybe you will stay the next time you come back or maybe you'll just play because it's you I lack.
	My heart is empty b/c i don't have you my heart is filled with pity b/c i still need you. what am i supposed to do every night we're apart how am i to cope? my pain is all in my heart maybe i have way too much hope. i wonder how you really feel feel about you and i i even wonder if its real or is it all a lie. i know i didn't do anything wrong i know i haven't maybe i was just too strong but it's just a habit. i'm sorry if i loved you so much i just hoped it would be i'm sorry i missed your touch i just wanted you to love me.
	Forgive me father I have sin I have fallen deep within Deep within his weary soul Deep within in which i can not hold. I have fallen deep in his eyes I have seen the soul inside I have felt his addicting touch I have learned to love him so much I have learned about his honestly I will love him endessly So I gave him what was mine Thinking I would be quit fine So far so good i guess you can say Nothing bad came my way I'm still sitting here today Writing about the time I got layed.