DJKoRnFan's PaGe
KoRn Rules!
Are you ready? This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide You don't know the chances, what if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain You don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind. Another place I find to escape the pain inside Deeper, deeper, deeper as I journey to Live a life that seems to be A lost reality that I can never find No way to reach, my inner self-esteem is low How deep can I go in the ground that I lay? If I don't find a way to see through the gray that clouds my mind This time I look to see what's between the lines How can you fuckin doubt me, but not again... I, I am confused, fighting myself Wanting to give in, needing your help Each day confronted with what I have done I push you away,You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain. I push you away You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain. Well fuck you I'm fed up with you I'm not as good as you Fuck no, I'm better than you x8 Why did you tease me? Made me feel absurd I sound like I can never seem to escape All the laughing, all the pain If you were me, what would you do? Nothing probably, you'd just go away Why do you treat me this way? Made the hurt stay I can, in every way Mistake the pain I feel inside It comes to me Evil thoughts is creeping through my mind Silence overwhelms my mind Should I pray? For all the hate to go away Another day I can never break free I can't stand the sight of you I can't stand what you put me through Here I am just a man, feeling pain gives me life Relieving this is my plan, I’ll do anything, just to see through your eyes I hate you, can you feel the pain My mind reveals a certain place, a place I wish I’d stayed I feel so lost within, pressured, I’m heading for that day I lay in bed at night and wonder should I go this way Fuck all this bullshit!! I’m so alone so therefore I can’t relate, I’m so dumb though it’s nothing to hate Really is it me or is it fate, give me peace or release for fuck sake RIGHT something NOW rips my HEART and takes MY soul I WAIT to late NOW I feel HATE inside TAKE my soul away, away So you see I’ve gotten this far, please give me some place to rage I’m not trying to go there, so take me away Life sometimes pisses me off, it’s never a good trip for me Every time I reach for love it’s taken away Come on step inside and your realize tell me what ya need, tell me what to be Watch your vision you’ll see, what do you expect of me, I can’t live that lie Let me strip the plane let me not give in, free me of your lies inside my heart dies Your dreams never had achieved, don’t lay that shit on me, let me live my life You really want me to be a good son why you make me feel like no one Something takes a part of me, something lost and never seen Every time I start to believe, something’s raped and taken from me, from me Life’s gotta be always messing with me, can’t it chill and let me be free Can’t I take away all this pain, I try to every night all in vein, in vein Sometimes I cannot take this place, sometimes it’s my life I can taste Nothing changes just rearranges for me this time Once I give in, what can I fight...ooh I can never win, myself I don’t like, I don’t like, I don’t like, I don't like Something is calling I can’t keep from falling, come on I'm out here by myself all alone I hurt so bad inside Please get away from me Beating down through the ground, yes, it always seems You take more from me (more from me) So I'm saying, nothing Each day taken, and much more As I'm screaming all my pain This shit is all of a pain I can not maintain As the shit gnaws at my brain Lately things walk in my way So I'm angry fuck today Anger is the only thing I made It feels like something No its nothing, To be up for this way hating feeling, falling to the place, where people haunt me, I can't help but keep from falling to the place, where people call me I can't wait to get them, these feelings of hating, keeping inside me for all to take Picking at me, they're ripping at me, ripping at me Some I came too far, to end up this way I can't stand to let you win, I'm just watching you, and I don't know what to do Feeling like i'm born inside Feeling all the love you hide Thought you were my friend, Seems it never ends Can't somebody help me? All I need is some pain Yes, just for me Giving you this and that Giving, getting nothing back It all related to all that things I do Feeling like a fool inside Seeing all the things you try I am nothing I look, I sign, I need someone, inside, to help, me out, with what I'm trying, I'm crying, I'm frying, In a pile of shit, I'm dying, I'm dying, I'm dying, I need Somebody (Someone) Somebody (Somebody) Someone I need Somebody (Someone) Somebody (Somebody) Someone Someone... I am carrying this thing inside me It wants to get out All it does is scream and shout I'm try not to let him out They tell me to hurt myself They tell me to hurt myself They tell me to hurt myself But I'm not gunna listen. Am I going crazy...? Am I insane, and dazed...? Am I, too lost, to face this? And watch it will cost to escape Nothing is right, I'm so scared I don't want this to go away (just go away) i'm so scaried, I can't see whats going on I feel the reason as it is leaving me, No not again. Everyone is looking at me I can't get out bed There is evil in my head Everyone just let me be Tell me how could this be? I am going in shame Your cruel (hurt, and my pain) Everyone please let me be I feel the shame, I'm not insane, the things I feel now, aren't the same Who gives a fuck, if my life sucks I just know one thing, I won't give up How did it start, well I don't know. I tell my lies and I despise every second I'm with you So I run away, and you still stay, so what the fuck is with you? My heart inside its constantly hating I'm sorry, I just throw you away I don't why I'm so fucking cold, I don't know why it hurts me, All I want to do is get with you and make the pain go away Why do I have a conscience all it does is fuck with me, Why do I have this torment all I want to do is fuck it away It seems funny to me, how fucked things can be Everytime I ahead, I feel the dead This pain in my stomach...won't go away. I assume this is punishment for all the mistakes I've made. Cuz I'm lonlier now than I've...ever been. They'll tell you, just let it go It's easier said than done I appreciate it, I do, but Just leave me alone Leave me alone Just leave me alone And nothing gonna change You can go away I'm just gonna stay here And always be the same It's just one of those days Where ya don't wanna wake up Everything is fucked, everybody sucks. But you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain Because you know it all and I guess things will never change But you might need my hand when falling in your hole Your disposition I'll remember when I'm letting go You and me we're through And rearranged You're no good For me Thank God its over Went too fast Way too soon I feel disgusted and you should too Memories of those filthy things that we do I'm sick of the excuses that you want me to believe I've been understanding, givin' everything you need Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see I'm done with you, I'm done with you Would there be a difference if I followed what you say? Taken from my mind and I can't seem to get away Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see I'm done with you, I'm done with you Everyone is the same Quick to point the blame All I know is that life is a struggle Why, I can't seem to escape all the games that you play All I know is that life is a struggle Sorry, I'm angry, I've fallen from everything Why am I so angry inside my head Life's all the same, It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed to live my life Why am I so angry inside my head Life's all the same, It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed Will you, walk me To the edge again Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again Woke up tonight and no one's here with me I'm giving in to you Caught up, in life Losing all my friends Family has tried, to heal all my addictions Tragic it seems, to be alone again I'm giving in to you I look forward, to dying tonight Drinks still on myself, life's harder every day The stress has got me I'm giving in Giving Giving in now! Why am I even trying? I'm crying out, I'm crying out I cannot seem to keep from freaking out Spinny round, spinny round, I've fallen down I cannot seem to keep from freaking out Today you told me that I'd hate you forever I can't believe what's really going on Somehow I knew that you felt guilty for something But tell me why you do this to me Today you told me that I'd hate you forever I can't believe that you'd wreck my life I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside It's never staying, losing close friends I've gone away, you make me stay but I can't tell it from lies I've gone insane, losing close friends Today I made the worst mistake I put my trust into someone I don't know And now I know because you've done everything possible to me Made me so upset And now I know just who to trust because you're laying in bed You're thinking 'bout all that fucked up shit I'm so weak The closeness of your skin The smell of this place Makes me go insance Why am I even trying? I'm crying out, I'm crying out I cannot seem to keep from freaking out Spinny round, spinny round, I've fallen down I cannot seem to keep from freaking out I'm trippin' out, I'm trippin' out I cannot seem to keep from freaking out Draw me down, breaking down I've hit the ground I cannot seem to keep from freaking out I'm crying out, I'm crying out, I'm crying out, freaking out Draw me down, breaking down I've hit the ground I cannot seem to keep from freaking out I cannot take this anymore I'm saying everything I've said before All these words they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Less I hear the less you'll say But you'll find that out anyway Just like before... Everything you say to me Takes me one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I need a little room to breathe Cause I'm one step closer to the edge And I'm about to break I find the answers aren't so clear Wish I could find a way to disappear All these thoughts they make no sense I find bliss in ignorance Nothing seems to go away Over and over again Crawling in my skin These wounds / they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real It starts with one thing I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on, but didn't even know Wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter everyday its the same, im tired of playing these games, looking for something true, name of the game feel the pain, and give u back everything u put me threw! i cant breathe , will someone save me? suffercate my bodies weaken i breathe get out b4 its to late , why do i feel alone so close but so far from home, nothing i know i beleave all intill after they leave, never let this get away from me i cant breathe , will someone save me? suffercate my bodies weaken i breathe get out b4 its to late, u know its pulln me down it pulling me down!!!!!!!!!!! Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else Cut my life into pieces I’ve reached my last resort Suffocation No breathing Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding Do you even care if I die bleeding? Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight Chances are that I might Mutilation outta sight And I’m contemplating suicide Cuz I’m losing my sight Losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine Losing my sight Losing my mind Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine I never realized I was spread too thin Till it was too late And I was empty within Hungry! Feeding on chaos And living in sin Downward spiral where do I begin? It all started when I lost my mother No love for myself And no love for another. Searching to find a love up on a higher level Finding nothing but questions and devils I’m over it. You see I’m falling In a vast abyss Clouded by memories of the past I hear it fading I can’t speak it Or else you will dig my grave Walking Waiting Alone without a care Hoping Hating Things I can't bear Did you think it's cool To walk right up And take my life And fuck it up Well did you? Well did you? I see hell in your eyes Taken in by surprise(surprise) Touching you makes me feel alive Touching you makes me die inside I'm trapped in this world Lonely and fading Heartbroke and waiting For you to come We are stuck in this world That's not meant for me For me You fell away What more can I say The feelings evolved I wont let it out I can't replace Your screaming face Feeling the sickness inside Everything’s so blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody’s empty and everything is so messed up everyone is changing there’s no one left that’s real you take it all you take it all away... this pain you gave to me you take it all away this pain you gave to me take it all away this pain I try to breathe Memories overtaking me I try to face them but Well fuck them And fuck her And fuck him And fuck you For not having the strength in your heart to pull through I've had doubts I have failed I've fucked up I've had plans Doesn't mean I should take my life with my own hands I sit here locked inside my head Remembering everything youve said This silence gets us nowhere! Gets us nowhwere way too fast I'm so scared so I try I confide in nothing I just hide Some things are better left unsaid Some things are better forgotten Some things are better left unsaid Some things are better forgotten No one will ever understand me No one to hold my hand So you think I am a fool Hanging on your every word You really hurt me You won the game Waiting all this time I've got nothing to hold on But the faces of my life I can see before I'm gone Sometimes I feel it chasing me All the hate that's breaking me I realize I'm taking everything And the shit seems to follow This time I feel it taking me To a place I hate to be All along I sing to make believe And the shit seems to follow I'm thinking of Making all the fucked people Making the bitches I love Make them die and go away Pain from the start All my dreams are ripped apart Thanking all the fucked people They are all the things I've said Eating, feeding Man I got to let it out Am I waiting? Screaming nothing ever come out I keep feeling lost I'll never find my way out I'm not thanking them Unless the truth can pour out I take this time To let out what’s inside Cuz I will panic Sometimes I wish you'd die Full of sorrow You may bestow my pride And all this hate is bottled up inside My heart is breaking Man you really ripped it out You take pleasure watching as I Crawl my way out The hurt rising Soon it's going to tear my soul out It’s not kosher feeling like I’m on my way out All, All my hate can not be bound I will not be found Why you bother scheming? So you can try to tear me down? Beat me to the ground You think it's funny What the fuck you think it's done to me? My life, worry, lifeless story Give up, beating I'll start, bleeding tell me where to start think I'm at the end Right now, feeling pain making it go away I can't feel my heart But I feel the shame Nothing left to say Soon I'll fade away These places all I ever Think about is lost in time These faces haunting me I'm looking back And they are mine I'm hiding from the things they say Doing time and let astray Thinking back to times of yesterday I'm trying to find a better way But I'm trapped, can't get away All I think is about yesterday So I take my face and bash it into a mirror I won't have to see the pain (Bleed, Bleed) This pain is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating Anticipating, all the fuck up feelings again The hurt inside is fading This shit gone way too far All this time I've been waiting Oh I can not greave anymore For what's inside awaking I'm not, I'm not a whore You've taking everything and oh I can not give anymore My mind is done with this ok? I got a question "Can I throw it all away?" Take back what's mine So I take my time, riding my blade down the line Each cut closer to the vein (Bleed, Bleed) I am the burden of my everything In of it's scar I'll be reborn in hatred Feeling I can't love no more I've had to suffer I cannot wait for more No loving and no praying All my hate is for the taking I am the falling of my happiness It is no more Stop loving, I’m still hating Till I can not hate no more So why can it be, No one hears because, Echoes back at me No ones there To all these meaningless feelings I cant deal with in my life To all these greedy people Trying to feed on what is mine You’ve got to feel your hunger And stop fucking with my mind I know its time to leave these places far behind So why can it be, No one hears because, Echoes back at me No ones there To all these meaningless feelings I cant deal with in my life To all these greedy people Trying to feed on what is mine You’ve got to feel your hunger And stop fucking with my mind I know its time to leave these places far behind Well all I see it burns my eyes Burning all inside Always diseasing Sometimes I lose faith Where is my strength to hold on? Facing existence how can I relate? Do I stand clear or move on? Caught in the corners of my mind Beginning over one more time Taking me over (taking all that’s mine) One more time Why can I not break this spell? I'm in darkness, is this hell? Falling towards this hole I see This is how it has to be Pick me up Been bleeding too long Right here, right now I'll stop it some how I will make it go away Can't be here no more Seems this is the only way I will soon be gone These feelings will be gone These feelings will be gone Now I see the times they change Leaving us it seems so strange I am hoping I can find Where to leave my heart behind All this shit I seem to take All alone I seem to break I have lived the best I can Does this make me not a man? Shut me off I am ready Heart stops I stand alone Can't be on my own My life is such a waste Begging on something to work this time But why can't I relate? Feeling all like who is get what’s mine Holding on to faith, never gave me nothing but despair So why do I create just to be swallowed? Believing all this time before a crowd could side Believing all the basics of everything that I could find Believing all this time too far to cross the line Believing all the basics of everything that I could find I Cannot take this place Burning up inside this space of mine Why can't I replace, feelings I find hard to really find? I try but I can't taste Memories they always fuck with me So why do I create just to be swallowed? All my feelings have been eating onto me Feed inside, is there something wrong With me? You came into my life without a single thing I gave into your ways, which left me with nothing I've given into smiles, I've dealt with all your games I wish you're happy now, I had to let you win In the sea of life, you're just a minnow You live your life insecure I feel the pain of your needles As they shit into my mind scream without a sound How could you take away everything that I was? Left me a fuckin slave Your face that I despise Your heart inside that's grey I came today to say you're fucked in every way You stole my life without a sign You sucked me dry Why don't you get the fuck out of my face, now Why don't you get the fuck out of my face, now Why don't you get the fuck out of my face, now Why don't you get the fuck out of my face, now You would always say I'd never be shit They would always say I'd never be shit But look at me now, look at me now Now you're beggin' me to stay! (
) that is how i feel everyday of my life!!!! (
) now this yr will be different no more giving in im tired of being stepped on and i give up trying to make everyone happy, im going to do more for me and live my new life to its fullist! (
) to my family on here megz, jerm, nikki, alyssa, and brit thanx for it all and dave ur still my brother i dont care what anyone says i love u kid! to all my friends will,dawn,ambie, megan, and all the rest of u! and for u all this is for u: This shit right here is for you All your faces I can see, You are thinking its something about me, I'm about to break, This is my fate, Am I still damned to a life of misery and hate You will never know, what I've done for you What you know, got me through, I do for you I could (have) never (lived) if it wasn't for you
ABOUT Me:I am 19 bday 1-18-83 im a guy ( ) WORK: @ the hudson movieplex 8 im a supervisor ( ) favorite stuff: pizza chilln with friends not working paintballn and my fav band KoRn ( ) page # 822-3324 Other Places to go:
